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Some days I wonder....will there ever be a day that goes by that I don't think of Kyle? Granted I talk to him pretty much everyday.....but I mean honestly think about him and wonder what he's doing and if he's happy. I only ever want him to be happy. There are just things that happen in daily life that make me think of him and I wish they weren't there.
Today we went to Zaxby's for dinner and it of course reminded me of when Kyle was here and we went there and said we would become chicken wing/chips and salsa/beer/pizza connoisseurs together. It was funny at the time....but now it's kinda not so funny.
Making pancakes with anyone else will just seem empty and not right. Waking anyone else up with a kiss in the morning and not hearing the annoying "ut-uh" will just be completly wrong. As dumb as that sounds.
One of Beave's songs says "We only get one chance to live again, we only get one chance to loose, there is nobody out there pickin up the pieces" What if he's right? What if there is only one chance for anything. Does that mean that we all are doomed to 8 month relationships that are one of a kind and never anything better? Will there ever be a better or will there just be a settle?
On a side note....I hung out with a new boy tonight. It was fun and I think he's a real nice guy....hope I'm not wrong lol....that would suck. But the whole time I was hanging out with him...I kept thinking..."he's not kyle" WTF!! I know no one else will ever be kyle but for goodness sakes can't I have one night were I don't compare every guy to kyle? I don't wanna.........
Today we went to Zaxby's for dinner and it of course reminded me of when Kyle was here and we went there and said we would become chicken wing/chips and salsa/beer/pizza connoisseurs together. It was funny at the time....but now it's kinda not so funny.
Making pancakes with anyone else will just seem empty and not right. Waking anyone else up with a kiss in the morning and not hearing the annoying "ut-uh" will just be completly wrong. As dumb as that sounds.
One of Beave's songs says "We only get one chance to live again, we only get one chance to loose, there is nobody out there pickin up the pieces" What if he's right? What if there is only one chance for anything. Does that mean that we all are doomed to 8 month relationships that are one of a kind and never anything better? Will there ever be a better or will there just be a settle?
On a side note....I hung out with a new boy tonight. It was fun and I think he's a real nice guy....hope I'm not wrong lol....that would suck. But the whole time I was hanging out with him...I kept thinking..."he's not kyle" WTF!! I know no one else will ever be kyle but for goodness sakes can't I have one night were I don't compare every guy to kyle? I don't wanna.........