Everything (3/7), by joblairfan
Title: Everything
Author: joblairfan
Fandom: Guiding Light
Pairing: Olivia/Natalia
Rating: Parts 1-4 (G rated), Parts 5-7 (Seriously NC-17)
Spoilers: Assumes back story up until 9/10/09. I have taken a few liberties, including:
1) Making Natalia a little less pregnant. (6 mos.) 2) Explaining why Natalia disappeared the way that she did. 3) Giving voice to “what I think” has been left unsaid between our girls, through the use of inner dialogue. 4) Giving Olivia “Freakin’ Spencer back her sexual prowess. 5) Proving that Natalia is “in touch” with what she really wants. 6) Proving women in love have more than forehead sex.
Summary: This story takes place on the day that Olivia and Emma (finally) move back to the farmhouse, and chronicles their first night together.
Special Thanks: To my offline beta, Tatum. (aka: SnailHeatReader)
Disclaimer: I don’t own the characters of Olivia Spencer or Natalia Rivera…I just let them have a lot more fun than CBS did!)
Now on with the show…
PART THREE
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The bathroom was bathed in candlelight and smelled of fresh Jasmine and Lavender. Natalia tested the bath water with the index finger of her right hand. Perfect. She had purposely drawn the bath to be just a little hotter than needed. Natalia knew that the ‘slightly overheated’ temperature of the water would tire Olivia. Add to that the aromatherapy candle scents and the bath salts, and poor Olivia would be putty in her hands. Natalia knew first hand how pliable a sleepy and foggy headed Olivia could be.
Natalia smiled ruefully, as she sniffed the alcohol charged odor of Olivia’s favorite wine. She placed the oversized and overfull wine glass beside the bathtub. Just a little added measure to make sure her Olivia could relax properly. Her Olivia. She loved the sound of that as it rolled through her mind. Soon she would claim Olivia and truly make her hers in every way imaginable.
She let the images of their life together slide across the backs of her closed eyelids, like a picture slide show. Olivia and Emma carving their Halloween pumpkin. Olivia and Emma smiling, as they held up matching turkey legs. Olivia posing beside the Christmas tree wearing that god-awful Christmas sweater that Emma bought her last year. Olivia kissing Natalia at the stroke of midnight on their living room couch. Olivia smiling proudly, as she held their newborn baby girl. Olivia. Perfect, wonderful, amazing Olivia.
Natalia stood up abruptly, and clapped her hands together confidently. Okay Natalia, it’s time to go get your girl. She walked purposefully through the bathroom door and into the master bedroom. She moved to the little desk in the corner and opened the top drawer to find a note pad and pen. Natalia smirked as she scribbled a note on the paper. She folded the paper in half, and wrote Olivia’s name on the outside edge. Natalia returned to the bathroom and placed the note against the stem of Olivia’s wineglass.
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“I’m glad we are living with Natalia again.” Emma’s voice was happy, but she couldn’t hide the tired edge in her tone.
Olivia smiled against the top of her daughter’s head, as she snuggled a little closer into her side. “Me too, Bean. I’ve really missed our family.”
“I don’t like it when you and Natalia fight.” Emma’s admission was spoken barely above a whisper. She didn’t want to live anywhere else, but with her two mommies.
“Me neither. I’ll try to be nicer, so we don’t fight anymore.” Olivia grumbled in a pretend angry tone, as she reached down and tickled the top of Emma’s thigh.
“Mom, stop!” Emma laughed uncontrollably, as she swatted Olivia’s hand away. She was painfully ticklish and it seemed that her mother loved to torture her every chance she got.
Olivia relented after a few minutes, but not before getting Emma to swear a promise to do an array of household chores, during the upcoming week. Olivia knew it wasn’t smart to get Emma all worked up before bedtime. It was really just a diversionary tactic on Olivia’s part, until she could think of the right thing to say to her daughter. Their daughter! Natalia was so much better with the difficult conversations. If Natalia were here, she’d tell Emma that it’s okay to disagree, as long as you always remember that you love each other. Natalia would find some poetic way to ease Emma’s fears, with words that spoke of love, loyalty and friendship. She’d say something about family and always sticking together. Emma would skip away from their conversation happier than ever, with not a worry in sight. She really wished Natalia were here for this conversation.
“Emma, do you have any idea how much I love you?” Olivia asked.
“A whole bunch?” Emma giggled, remembering the words of the lullaby her mother used to sing to her.
Olivia smiled. “Even more than that.” Olivia took a deep breath and dived into uncharted waters. “Emma, I have always loved you more than anyone. Since the day you were born; you were the most important thing in my life. There is nothing that I wouldn’t do for you, baby. There is nothing that would ever make me stop loving you. Okay?”
“Okay!”
Olivia sighed in relief. She had done a good job of swimming in the shallow end of the pool. Natalia could handle the deep stuff later.
“Mommy?” It seemed Emma had a different idea. “Do you love Natalia like you loved Daddy, Bill and Uncle Buzz?”
Emma had just thrown her into the middle of the ocean without a life preserver. Olivia pinched the bridge of her nose, as she felt the ache start to creep along her forehead. This was her penance for being so damn promiscuous in front of her daughter’s watchful eyes. Olivia had no right to expose her daughter to the shambles she’d called a love life. She would be lucky if Emma wasn’t scarred for life. Especially, after wading through the sea of unhealthy relationships in her mother’s life over the last nine years.
Of course that was before Natalia. Natalia was the one bright spot in Olivia’s history of lovers. That’s what she needed to focus on. Her relationship with Natalia was healthy, and a good role model for her daughter. Together, they would show Emma how good love could be; how right and true love can be. Together they would erase every bad image of love that Olivia had shown to Emma, before finding Natalia.
No time like the present. “No, Emma. I don’t love Natalia in the same way as Daddy, Bill and Uncle Buzz. I love Natalia more. I love Natalia like I love you and Ava. Just like I could never stop loving you or Ava; I could never stop loving Natalia.”
“Because she is our family?” Emma questioned. She really needed to understand.
“Yes, but that’s not the only reason.” Olivia struggled to explain in nine-year-old terms, what loving Natalia meant to her. “I love you and Ava because you are my family, but I also love you because you hold a very special place right here.” Olivia placed her hand over her heart. “There have only been two people who have had this special place in my heart. You and Ava.”
“Until Natalia?” Emma seemed fascinated by this new knowledge.
“Yes, baby. Until Natalia.” Olivia lifted Emma’s chin so that she could look into her daughter’s eyes. “You, Ava and Natalia.” She took Emma’s hand in hers, and laid it against her heartbeat. “You three are the only ones who have ever been here.”
“What about when my new baby sister comes?” Emma smiled.
“Well, I guess you, Ava and Natalia will have to make some room for her too!” Olivia wiggled her eyebrows at Emma.
Emma suddenly sounded serious, as her hand stiffened on her mother’s chest. “What if Rafe wants to be in here too?”
Olivia smiled teary eyed at her beautiful daughter. “Then we’ll build him his own room.”
Olivia couldn’t help but scoop Emma up into her arms. God she loved this child. Olivia smiled, as she felt Emma squeeze her tightly. How had she gotten so lucky to have two such amazing daughters? In fact, in three short months, she’d be blessed with another little girl. Three beautiful daughters, a gorgeous woman to help her raise them and a home life she was proud of. Again, Olivia wondered how she got so damn lucky!
Olivia turned toward the sound of Natalia’s gasp. She saw Natalia standing at the foot of the stairs; tears rolling freely down her smiling face. Suddenly Olivia had her arms filled with two of her favorite girls. Really, she thought to herself. How’d I get so damn lucky?
Natalia clung to Olivia. She was speechless. There was so much she wanted to say, but Olivia’s words had rendered her mute. After everything that she and Rafe had put Olivia through, she still made a place in her heart for them. There were just no words.
Olivia felt Natalia’s breath against her cheek and her lips kiss her ear. Like a mantra, Natalia whispered the same three words over and over again. “I love you.”
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They stayed wrapped in each others arms until Emma became restless, as all nine year olds need to move. Some flaw in their design doesn’t allow them to sit still for more than five minutes. Unless of course their sleeping, watching Dora the Explorer, playing video games, hogging the computer or asking questions that make their parents cringe. Olivia smiled. That’s how we got here to begin with. Maybe the question part wasn’t so bad.
“Well, I guess it’s time for my bath.” Olivia smiled when she noticed the blush that appeared on Natalia’s face.
“And while Mommy is in the bath, guess who gets to tuck you in?” Natalia asked Emma.
“Yeah!” Emma cheered. “What story should we read? I got a bunch of new books at the library last week.” Enthusiasm came easily to their daughter.
“Let’s pick something your baby sister will like. Then I can read to both of my favorite little girls.” Natalia said as she placed a kiss atop Emma’s head.
Olivia watched as Natalia and Emma girlishly giggled as they climbed the stairs together. She realized that this farmhouse wasn’t her home. Her home was where her heart was. No place of mortar, wood or stone could hold her heart. Only Natalia and her children could do that. They were her home. Olivia suddenly remembered what she had left unsaid between her and Emma.
She moved to the bottom of the staircase and called up to Emma. She was rewarded with two sets of eyes smiling down at her. One set a color of green that matched her own. The other set was the color of dark amber. Olivia saw two completely different sets of eyes, with two very different types of affection staring back at her. The one thing those eyes had in common; they both were brimming with love that was designed for Olivia alone.
“Emma, I want you to know that we are really home to stay. We won’t be moving out again.” Olivia smiled, when she saw Emma’s face grow impossibly more beautiful.
“Yeah! We’re never moving again!” Emma cheered, waving her hands in the air.
Olivia’s eyes twinkled with mischief. She was sure to catch Natalia’s eyes, as she added. “Nope! Never moving again. Unless of course we need a bigger house, because Natalia wants to give you more little baby brothers and sisters in the future.” Olivia laughed heartily when Natalia’s eyebrows rose so high they almost disappeared into her hairline.
“Yeah! More baby sisters!” Apparently, Emma missed the baby brother part of Olivia’s remark. “How many can we have?” Emma was practically dancing in front of Natalia.
Natalia gave Olivia the devil stare, before turning her face into a smile for Emma. “I don’t know, Emma. That’s something we’ll have to discuss as a family.”
“I want three! How many do you want mommy?” Emma asked Olivia excitedly. She sounded like she was ordering off a menu from Natalia’s Baby Factory.
Olivia couldn’t hold back her laughter. Especially, when she saw Natalia’s shocked expression, at their daughter’s question.
“Emma!” Olivia couldn’t get herself under control and barked out another round of laughter. She looked to Natalia, who was doing a great impersonation of a fish out of water. No help there. Olivia tried again, “Emma, I think the question is: How many babies does Natalia want to have?”
“Oh?” Emma paused to consider her mother’s comment and then smiled brightly. “Natalia, do you want to have three more baby sisters for me and mommy?”
“Uhhh?” Natalia was getting really good at that fish impression.
Emma’s question to Natalia almost caused Olivia to fall on the floor laughing. Olivia’s body was shaking with laughter, Emma was smiling joyfully and Natalia was making fish faces. Could life get any better than this?
Taking pity on Natalia, Olivia decided to address their daughter’s question. She climbed the stairs to stand beside the woman she loved. She wrapped one arm around Natalia, as she placed her free hand over Natalia’s swollen belly.
“Emma, we have to wait for our little girl to be born first,” She smiled into Natalia’s eyes. “Before we deicide, as a family,” She looked down to Emma. “If want to have anymore babies. Okay?”
“Okay!” Emma nodded her approval, as her mothers pulled her in for a hug.
“Time for bed, sweetie.” Natalia regained her voice. “Give Mommy a kiss goodnight.”
As Natalia walked Emma to her bedroom, she glanced back to Olivia over her shoulder. “It’s bath time for you, Mommy.” Natalia smiled, as she pointed to the door of the master bedroom. Natalia’s smile was the picture of innocence. Best to keep Olivia unaware, she thought. Natalia would get her ‘sweet’ revenge later, and it would be so worth the wait.
TBC....