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why do i even try to get along with some people i dont understand myself. i am a certain way, my friends and i joke around a certain way, thats how we are. but when a homophobic person gets in the mix then its gets bad, and then we look like the a-holes not the homophobe. at first i thought ok maybe i did act like an asshole but come on i was in a binding situation. one the red sox were in the 2nd biggest game of my life (first being the sixth game of the 86' world series) and two trying not to seem like an asshole in front of my friends boyfriend, well one of the two came out good, the other didnt. i am sorry i didnt act perfect but i could only really focus on one thing i couldnt help it. but then i got a repreive last night, and i was as friendly as possible i even forgot about the the fact that he thinks i hate and tried my best. well i guess my best isnt good enough for some people and i cant help that, actually i could but i think its ilegal in the u.s. and i dont wanna risk it, i would for everyone's happiness, but too risky to go for. after the dennys run we talked about and found out the truth, he really just hates me. ok lets face it hes not stupid, so he told his girlfriend instead of hating me like he does, he just thinks i hate him so he doesnt have to like me, a sad sad excuse. all of us agreed on this, who us is wont be released and its not who people would think either. at first we all thought he was ok and he wasnt bad at all but nowi realize something, he doesnt like us. anytime we were us he interupted or complain or was just plain rude, but it really doesnt matter what i say even though im right, people will just dismiss it and say look who its coming from. but im not the only who has said it im just the only one to let everyone know about it. i wish i could just say well i thought he hated me so ill act like an asshole anytime hes around. but im too much of a friend to do that. so any time hes around ill act like i do any other time im with my friends, and not in a crummy mood like i have been lately. and im man enough and care enough not to let a shitty petty excuse allow me to lower myself to a being remniscent to the stuff i find in my dogs hair after they play outside. im also sorry if this affends any in particular, just let me know and ill talk about it and apologize even more if need be. I WONT THIS KIND OF SHIT GET IN THE WAY. well ta ta i got to get my dog to surgery and get some cancer removed FUCK YA!