She's taken of course!

[jobe57]

You know I feel like my stomach is turning inside out and that my arms are weak and I feel sick. Just sometimes this whole feeling alone thing really can suck ass, I mean it really kicks in on the holidays when I work at a mall where I see hundreds of couples walking by holding each other or hands and I serve them popcorn with a smile. As they

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Yeah but

[jobe57]

I know Matt and I've come to understand that life is hard, and the shit is sadly only going to get harder, I'm prepared for that journey, the thing that gets me though is walking that path alone. I mean I tried the jesus route, I'm still trying it, but I have trouble with faith and believing that he's there when there is nothing in front of my eyes. My family though supportive but not as strong as they are destructive is there but I can tell that they're fading and for my friends, I get a feeling they'd much rather walk their own path and follow their own journey and they'd appreciate it more if I helped them on theirs. Its just confusing and stressful and I wish these 52% that you speak of would at least half come to their senses so that no one has to feel this way. As for the sex part, your probably right, I haven't had one experience yet where it was good, and probably when I do experience it like half of america has, I will be hooked and conflicted, just is it really all worth it? I mean doesn't it bring on loads of unneeded drama and really stresses relationships or the lack there of? I think those saving themselves for marriage were actually on the right track because I have yet to see any of them snap unlike those who I've heard saying "You were in me! You came twice, that means something!" Yeah damn vanilla sky speaks so much truth to peoples experiences, but I've heard someone say that, except they were speaking about the guy saying he wanted to be in them, that's just even farther. I don't know, getting scared now.