Jesus, I'm a goddamned mess

[joans23]

It hurts ... my chest ... so much I can hardly breathe. There's tears and snot all over the place and gleeful grinning and oh God, my heart aches. I can't think straight or feel anything except this, right here, right now ... and it's because of a story.

Words.

Yeah.

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[juice817]

Well? WHICH STORY? Shaaaaaaaare.

[joans23]

It's felisblanco's The Doors of Time. I just spent the entire weekend reading it and ... it broke me.

[quiet_rebel]

I hate and love it when that happens!

Now tell us, what is this story that has broken you?!

[joans23]

It's so weird. I mean, I get affected by what I read all the time, but then sometimes it just hits me. That words, strung together by someone's brain into this magical thing, can have such a profound effect on you. It blows my mind.
Oh, and it was felisblanco's The Doors of Time. And yes, that's completely right, it broke me.

[kelleigh]

The Doors Of Time?

[joans23]

You know me too freaking well.

Remember how you said there are stories that you couldn't bear to read? Well, for some reason this was one of mine. Don't know why. Or how I even ended up reading it anyway, but it's kinda destroyed me. I still can't quite figure out if I mean that in a good or a bad way. Thoughts and feelings are still too incoherent and to be honest, shying away from analysing it too deeply. *hugs*

[kelleigh]

Yeah, I obviously know what you mean! I haven't shied away from it, but I know I won't have time to read it until after my trip this weekend at the very least, and I wanted to wait until the frenzy died a little (I cheated though, I read the last chapter the day it was posted). I also really know the feeling of not wanting to analyze it any deeper until it's had time to settle and process. Maybe after I get back and read it?

Also, in a selfish way, I want to wait so it doesn't make me lose my will to write =(

[joans23]

You definitely need lots of time to read it - it took me the entire weekend. Granted, there were a quite a few interruptions where I had to just get up and walk away for a while before I could go on reading.

You know, in a weird way, while it has drained me emotionally, it has also given me some inspiration to write as well. (Wow, deja vu ... I could swear I've had this discussion before ... weird, lol!) As in, I now almost have my big bang opening paragraph composed in my head, ready to be written down. Which I'm just going to be all \o/ about and nevermind the rest. :P

[englishblue]

Huh????

[joans23]

There's this story, been recced all over the place, but I couldn't read it. I can't explain why, I just ... couldn't. And then, somehow, I did. Took me the entire weekend and in the end it just completely destroyed me. Because it was so good? Yes. Because it touched something inside me? YES! It wasn't just one thing I could point out and say "That, that's it", it just ... for lack of better words, broke me. And it just hit me that a story, fiction, could have such a profound effect. The power of words. Even this morning on the way to work, I couldn't read my book ... I was still in there, with them and I didn't want to leave yet.
So yeah, the day has come that J2 porn has made me lose my shit, lol. And if you want to know, it's felisblanco's The Doors of Time. And sorry this turned into some kind of rant! I'll go back to hiding in the corner now. <3

[slashgoddess]

the recent one made me feel that way is this
tell me yours~ XD

[joans23]

It was felisblanco's The Doors of Time. How do they do it, make us feel so damn hard? It's weird/amazing/freaky/wonderful/mind blowing, isn't it?