Hello, anybody there?
What is it with me, I'm starting to wonder if i really actually have any friends. I wanted so badly to move to cb because it seemed like I had so many friends here compared to rh. I am really doubting that idea now. Nobody can be bothered to even come and visit me, I always have to be the visitor. I don't understand, what is wrong with me, I feel really alone in the world. Jason is gone away and we never seem to manage to talk because our schedules totally clash, it doesnt matter anyway because he doesn;t understand how i feel. I'm getting so sick of going to tara's and having to sit down and watch everyone drink because i have to drive home. I really need a best friend, someone that i talk to everyday, someone who can just tell when there is something wrong and can make me feel better. I had ideas of renting a chalet at HVR to have a xmas party, but who am i kidding nobody will show up. I wish someone will tell me what is up, why am i so forgetable. I am always everybody back up friend, for when the people that they want to be with aren't available. I don't get it I try so hard to be a good friend and it just doesn't work. i thought that me and cara were really good friends but obviously i was wrong, i haven't even heard from her in months, I made a special trip to rh to see her on her birthday and she couldn't tear herself away from darren (her new man) and his cabin to so much as say hello. I thought that when i moved back up here me and alicia would be best friends again, but she is working in white hills and now that she has a kid she's different, steve has a girlfriend so he's too busy with her, i suggested that the four of us hang out but i doubt that will happen. i've gone to visit shirley and she won't leave the house because of her kids and i think the same goes for sam and joanne. My own grandmother doesn't even know me, she always knows my husband but she doesn't have a clue who i am, I showed her bonnies wedding pics and she was interested, i tried to show her mine and she stared into space. Would someone tell me am i a bitch, am i boring, or do i smell!!