making a living
So, for the first time in my life, my future is completely uncertain. In general, it feels pretty good. But I freak out a little bit every day.
The main source of stress or obligation is that I have to find a job that's "real" enough that I'd get health insurance. If it weren't for the health insurance thing, I would feel a lot more comfortable with just being a bum for a while. But it's funny, I feel like the health insurance will be more for my parents' sake than for mine.
So I want to make my own living. I want to live in an apartment in a city (I was pretty set on New York, but I just applied to this one dream job in Boston.) I want to work in an informal office where we can wear jeans and enjoy each other's company. I want to learn something from my job. I want to have enough time and energy after work to read, and write, and explore, and exercise, and learn some languages, and meet people, and cook interesting dishes, and keep in touch with friends.
For now, I just get to do most of that fun stuff; but without the crucial job part; and pretty soon, without an apartment either.
Well, I'm back in Massachusetts for a few days. Seeing the 'rents and the bro, and hopefully some cousins. And tomorrow I'm seeing Becky and Patrick!
The main source of stress or obligation is that I have to find a job that's "real" enough that I'd get health insurance. If it weren't for the health insurance thing, I would feel a lot more comfortable with just being a bum for a while. But it's funny, I feel like the health insurance will be more for my parents' sake than for mine.
So I want to make my own living. I want to live in an apartment in a city (I was pretty set on New York, but I just applied to this one dream job in Boston.) I want to work in an informal office where we can wear jeans and enjoy each other's company. I want to learn something from my job. I want to have enough time and energy after work to read, and write, and explore, and exercise, and learn some languages, and meet people, and cook interesting dishes, and keep in touch with friends.
For now, I just get to do most of that fun stuff; but without the crucial job part; and pretty soon, without an apartment either.
Well, I'm back in Massachusetts for a few days. Seeing the 'rents and the bro, and hopefully some cousins. And tomorrow I'm seeing Becky and Patrick!