i never update but..
okay you know how u get that feeling that feeling that u know someone likes you enough to call you theirs..their girlfriend..i miss that..i havent had someone feel that way about me in almost a year..thats a really long time to be lonely.yes i know ill always have my friends whom i love so much! but theres just a sort of feeling that friends cant help with..it seems my two bestfriends both have someone..someone to hold them..tell them how beautiful they are..tell them they dont watnt to leave them..to call them..to talk to when they need help..to always be there to tell them they look beautiful even when they have no make up on and their hairs up and they know they could look better but he still says she looks beautiful..just someone to be with..i miss that feeling i havent had it since a year ago..and even then it wasnt that strong..we didnt care for each other like i see the guys my friends date care for each other..i couldnt tell him everything..i couldnt call him when i needed someone to talk to.ive never had the bf like that but my friends tell me about them...and how much they care for them..and all the sweet things they say..and its not like oh i want that..its just i know i should..and even though my past relationships werent so successful..i still liked that feeling that knowing someone cared about me...and its been so long..and i miss it...