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[joann__]

holy shit!!!!!!!!! im reading my livejournal from 7th grade and omg. i don't think i've read anything more insane ever. seriously. i was fucking insane. i might still be, but eh. omg i don't even remember the last time i've felt something as intense as i did back then. wow. seriously. i think i may be brainwashing myself into thinking i'm not sad or anything anymore. because honestly, i don't know if i feel anything but worry anymore. i feel so old. i feel like all the experiences i've gone thru don't even mean anything anymore. blahhhh. why am i not as honest as i was before? i seriously did not hold one thing back and it's almost overwhelming. oh if i only i could show youuuuuuu!

i miss my amandamonsterr<3