I want to disappear in thin air…
But yeah, it’s always easier said than done. With all honesty, I can say that what I’m going through right now is really a tough situation. But being the Joan that I am, you won’t find me in one corner sulking/crying over my problems. Instead, you’ll find me laughing more than the usual, lulling myself that things will be okay soon. I can say I’m quite good in putting an act. I can always pretend and show everyone that I’m happy - even if I’m not. Not a slight hint of sadness will show - that’s an assurance. But like most things and people, I can only do it to some extent. I also get tired you know. In Filipino, “tao lang, napapagod rin”.
I face so many problems in my life right now. But as Bianca Gonzales would put it, I know “I’m gonna come out a better person”. I’d like to believe that I have endured so much in my lifetime already so what’s the point of giving up now? It’s not like I’m the kind of person who get “sindak” by problems easily. DEFINITELY NOT. But you know, times like these happen. It just… happens. And I’m certain that something good will come out of this situation I’m in. I’ll just have to charge it to experience. It’s amazing how I can still be optimistic despite everything. I’m not losing hope yet but I’m getting tired. I swear. Sometimes, I feel like I just want to lock myself up in my room and cry the whole day but I can’t seem to bring myself to do that. I wish I have someone to show compassion, someone I can cry the whole night with, someone who will tell me what I want to hear... but that’s a different story altogether. I just really wish I have someone. Period. I don’t want to hold any grudges to anyone. My life’s so dramatic. Like more dramatic than what your favorite teleseryes air on tv.
I don’t want to get stuck on this situation. I’M SO TIRED ALREADY =c
I face so many problems in my life right now. But as Bianca Gonzales would put it, I know “I’m gonna come out a better person”. I’d like to believe that I have endured so much in my lifetime already so what’s the point of giving up now? It’s not like I’m the kind of person who get “sindak” by problems easily. DEFINITELY NOT. But you know, times like these happen. It just… happens. And I’m certain that something good will come out of this situation I’m in. I’ll just have to charge it to experience. It’s amazing how I can still be optimistic despite everything. I’m not losing hope yet but I’m getting tired. I swear. Sometimes, I feel like I just want to lock myself up in my room and cry the whole day but I can’t seem to bring myself to do that. I wish I have someone to show compassion, someone I can cry the whole night with, someone who will tell me what I want to hear... but that’s a different story altogether. I just really wish I have someone. Period. I don’t want to hold any grudges to anyone. My life’s so dramatic. Like more dramatic than what your favorite teleseryes air on tv.
I don’t want to get stuck on this situation. I’M SO TIRED ALREADY =c