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It's been awhile, I'll catch you up on everything.
Adventures:
Last month, Michael, Brian, Rachel and I ventured to Portland to see Mute Math play at the Aladdin theater. Michael and I had seen them at Warped Tour last year, but this performance was mind-blowing: smoke machines, lights, kick-flips, the whole enchilada. Last weekend at Sasquatch, many of the performances I saw reached similar levels of awesomeness, particularly the Arcade Fire. The Beastie Boys, The Blow, and Smoosh all did great, and I have four new favorite bands: St. Vincent, Ghostland Observatory, Electrelane, and Earl Greyhound. Look them up, you'll love them. And after spending two nights sleeping in an SUV with Ashley and Cayla at the Gorge, I was reminded how much I love camping. If you ever ask me to go camping with you, I'll love you forever.
Also, adventures of a sexual nature. tehe!
Accomplishments:
I'm proud of myself, folks. This month I've conquered two of my greatest fears: public performance and needles. For the first, Katie talked me into forming a band with her, so I recruited Michael and we called ourselves the Seafaring Tuxedos. We played two short, noisy songs, and did alright. Then Kind Hearts and Convictions reincarnate played a 45-minute set and definitely won the competition, but I feel ok about it because, as Katie pointed out, more people danced for us anyway. As far as needles go, I've had to give myself a shot every week and it's totally easy now, man. Like pie.
Acquaintances:
The social anxiety is as bad as ever, but a sassy 30-something flower arranger named Roxy at Michael's flower delivery job has taken a liking to the both of us, which means dinner parties with sophisticated alcohol and candid talks about sex. Excellent!
Epiphanies:
Recently, I've had serious (or not so much) thoughts about my future, since graduation and independence are only a year away. I'm scared, honestly, but not of living on my own or any of that. I'm absolutely terrified that I'll become boring, become unimaginative, and stop trying to be an extraordinary person. That's my greatest fear in the world: that I'll give up, get a steady job, marry the guy I kinda like when I'm 22 and have a few kids, do my taxes and never, ever take chances. What I want more than anything is to live without certainties, so that I'm constantly challenging myself and learning what I'm made of, and making it all up as I go along. I especially don't want to measure myself up by how much money I have and what I buy; I don't want an iPod, cell phone, expensive house, or super-nice clothes. I just want to be in-tune with the universe.
At the moment, I'm thinking I'll get my AA shortly after I graduate and then go to the culinary arts school in Portland. For my parents, who have always hyped me up to be some sort of scientist/lawyer/journalist type, this is disappointing. They were downright disdainful when I told them I'd rather work five jobs than sit in an office all day, but I don't think that's an opinion that will ever change.
the near future:
Michael is leaving to tour the country with his band in only twenty days; I've dreaded this for a long time, but now I think it'll be good for me. I've unfortunately replaced some important friendships with my lover, and hopefully I'll be able to draw myself out of it (I could use help, though!). As distraction, I amuse myself with thoughts of making short films with Katie in an old RV "studio", camping often, midnight movies, lots of concerts, dancing, yoga, guitar strumming, visiting Michelle in Spokane and Curtis in Prosser, and possibly a trip to Laramie to see the ol' chums. Oh, and I'm taking summer classes. Kids, it's going to be a busy summer.
Also, next up, I think I should come out of the closet (so to speak) about my atheism. yeah, It's about time, and I'm so tired of being forced into sitting through church to hear the same things over and over again....I could be enjoying nature or meditating instead. sheesh!
Enough about me. What are some of your recent adventures, accomplishments, and epiphanies? I would really like to know.
Adventures:
Last month, Michael, Brian, Rachel and I ventured to Portland to see Mute Math play at the Aladdin theater. Michael and I had seen them at Warped Tour last year, but this performance was mind-blowing: smoke machines, lights, kick-flips, the whole enchilada. Last weekend at Sasquatch, many of the performances I saw reached similar levels of awesomeness, particularly the Arcade Fire. The Beastie Boys, The Blow, and Smoosh all did great, and I have four new favorite bands: St. Vincent, Ghostland Observatory, Electrelane, and Earl Greyhound. Look them up, you'll love them. And after spending two nights sleeping in an SUV with Ashley and Cayla at the Gorge, I was reminded how much I love camping. If you ever ask me to go camping with you, I'll love you forever.
Also, adventures of a sexual nature. tehe!
Accomplishments:
I'm proud of myself, folks. This month I've conquered two of my greatest fears: public performance and needles. For the first, Katie talked me into forming a band with her, so I recruited Michael and we called ourselves the Seafaring Tuxedos. We played two short, noisy songs, and did alright. Then Kind Hearts and Convictions reincarnate played a 45-minute set and definitely won the competition, but I feel ok about it because, as Katie pointed out, more people danced for us anyway. As far as needles go, I've had to give myself a shot every week and it's totally easy now, man. Like pie.
Acquaintances:
The social anxiety is as bad as ever, but a sassy 30-something flower arranger named Roxy at Michael's flower delivery job has taken a liking to the both of us, which means dinner parties with sophisticated alcohol and candid talks about sex. Excellent!
Epiphanies:
Recently, I've had serious (or not so much) thoughts about my future, since graduation and independence are only a year away. I'm scared, honestly, but not of living on my own or any of that. I'm absolutely terrified that I'll become boring, become unimaginative, and stop trying to be an extraordinary person. That's my greatest fear in the world: that I'll give up, get a steady job, marry the guy I kinda like when I'm 22 and have a few kids, do my taxes and never, ever take chances. What I want more than anything is to live without certainties, so that I'm constantly challenging myself and learning what I'm made of, and making it all up as I go along. I especially don't want to measure myself up by how much money I have and what I buy; I don't want an iPod, cell phone, expensive house, or super-nice clothes. I just want to be in-tune with the universe.
At the moment, I'm thinking I'll get my AA shortly after I graduate and then go to the culinary arts school in Portland. For my parents, who have always hyped me up to be some sort of scientist/lawyer/journalist type, this is disappointing. They were downright disdainful when I told them I'd rather work five jobs than sit in an office all day, but I don't think that's an opinion that will ever change.
the near future:
Michael is leaving to tour the country with his band in only twenty days; I've dreaded this for a long time, but now I think it'll be good for me. I've unfortunately replaced some important friendships with my lover, and hopefully I'll be able to draw myself out of it (I could use help, though!). As distraction, I amuse myself with thoughts of making short films with Katie in an old RV "studio", camping often, midnight movies, lots of concerts, dancing, yoga, guitar strumming, visiting Michelle in Spokane and Curtis in Prosser, and possibly a trip to Laramie to see the ol' chums. Oh, and I'm taking summer classes. Kids, it's going to be a busy summer.
Also, next up, I think I should come out of the closet (so to speak) about my atheism. yeah, It's about time, and I'm so tired of being forced into sitting through church to hear the same things over and over again....I could be enjoying nature or meditating instead. sheesh!
Enough about me. What are some of your recent adventures, accomplishments, and epiphanies? I would really like to know.