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I went to a rheumatologist today, and he thinks I have rheumatoid arthritis.
That's what I've suspected for a long time, but I've kind of kept it in the back of my mind. It's weird to actually hear it from a doctor, after months of semi-ignoring it, and hoping i was imagining it. I've never been diagnosed with a serious disease before. Does my disease change who I am? I don't feel like this is my body; it's never failed me so badly before.
even though I'm a little shocked, this diagnosis is good news. Having a name for it doesn't make the pain I've been living with any worse, and now I'm a whole lot closer to getting medication to treat it and prevent it from destroying my joints...the scariest part is when I hear what could have happened if I'd kept ignoring it.
it's weird to talk about it. I've almost kept it a secret all these months because I was afraid it was all in my mind.
That's what I've suspected for a long time, but I've kind of kept it in the back of my mind. It's weird to actually hear it from a doctor, after months of semi-ignoring it, and hoping i was imagining it. I've never been diagnosed with a serious disease before. Does my disease change who I am? I don't feel like this is my body; it's never failed me so badly before.
even though I'm a little shocked, this diagnosis is good news. Having a name for it doesn't make the pain I've been living with any worse, and now I'm a whole lot closer to getting medication to treat it and prevent it from destroying my joints...the scariest part is when I hear what could have happened if I'd kept ignoring it.
it's weird to talk about it. I've almost kept it a secret all these months because I was afraid it was all in my mind.