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sometimes i get the feeling that my life will end up being a great disappointment
and then i think that i may actually be able to pull through it
the days are going by so so fast
i'm waiting for may, no doubt
but i'm thinking why is may such a big deal?
it's just a time limit to accomplish what seems like a long term goal
i'm ready for big changes now
and it seems like it's taking forever to get there
byron is so patient
and i say that a lot, but it's so true
what he is able to withstand and deal with is so much bigger than what i can
and all the time i am feeling bad for him and his situation because it forces every action in his life
he's never fully experienced anything in 19 years because of them
and i'm about the closest thing to actual relief
damn
is life really supposed to be like that?
and are sane people supposed to accept that bullshit?
i don't know
i just support, but really i'm growing more and more impatient
i'm wanting things the way that i used to want them
quick, fast and in a hurry
i'm hope that i don't get dissatisfied
i'm planning something really big for byron
it's mainly to show how much i love and appreciate him
byron looks at me as if i am the only one to see
and he notices me
he understands me when i don't understand myself
he gets me
and i can't imagine anything better than this
everything i think about it, i can't help smiling to myself like some love-struck idiot
but, i suppose that idiot is me then
so much of this confuses and scares me
i just hope that i can get through my own apprehensions to fully love him, because that seems to be all that i am capable of doing
and i seem to be pretty awesome at that
amber got kicked out by her mom
i'm kind of not surprised
but i'm glad that she was able to come to me
it makes it seem like i am worth something and that i'm not a horrible person
i feel bad for her and her situation
but i think that she is going about it the wrong way
first of all, she doesn't quite want to move in with taylor because they decided that they don't want to "rush things because of the baby"
which makes no sense because they've been dating since august, and wanted to move in around october
and now she's pregnant
everything has already moved fast
maybe she will start to see that in due time
the only thing that will make me happy today is obama's inauguration into the white house and seeing the love of my life
one love
and then i think that i may actually be able to pull through it
the days are going by so so fast
i'm waiting for may, no doubt
but i'm thinking why is may such a big deal?
it's just a time limit to accomplish what seems like a long term goal
i'm ready for big changes now
and it seems like it's taking forever to get there
byron is so patient
and i say that a lot, but it's so true
what he is able to withstand and deal with is so much bigger than what i can
and all the time i am feeling bad for him and his situation because it forces every action in his life
he's never fully experienced anything in 19 years because of them
and i'm about the closest thing to actual relief
damn
is life really supposed to be like that?
and are sane people supposed to accept that bullshit?
i don't know
i just support, but really i'm growing more and more impatient
i'm wanting things the way that i used to want them
quick, fast and in a hurry
i'm hope that i don't get dissatisfied
i'm planning something really big for byron
it's mainly to show how much i love and appreciate him
byron looks at me as if i am the only one to see
and he notices me
he understands me when i don't understand myself
he gets me
and i can't imagine anything better than this
everything i think about it, i can't help smiling to myself like some love-struck idiot
but, i suppose that idiot is me then
so much of this confuses and scares me
i just hope that i can get through my own apprehensions to fully love him, because that seems to be all that i am capable of doing
and i seem to be pretty awesome at that
amber got kicked out by her mom
i'm kind of not surprised
but i'm glad that she was able to come to me
it makes it seem like i am worth something and that i'm not a horrible person
i feel bad for her and her situation
but i think that she is going about it the wrong way
first of all, she doesn't quite want to move in with taylor because they decided that they don't want to "rush things because of the baby"
which makes no sense because they've been dating since august, and wanted to move in around october
and now she's pregnant
everything has already moved fast
maybe she will start to see that in due time
the only thing that will make me happy today is obama's inauguration into the white house and seeing the love of my life
one love