How to Save a Life.
This whole time, I don't know why, I was kind of expectin the whole world to stop or something. But nothing ever really stops for anyone. Doesn't matter if everyone did love him. It's Kind of crazy, ya know?? You always imagine what you would be like if you ever lost a best friend, But you don't know until it happens......when you see them, just laying there, You will forever have that image in your head. It never goes away. How can you ever forget that person?? With so many good memories and not one fourth as many bad, It's really hard. You didn't even have to be close, you just had to know him.
Bj, I love you with all my heart. I've said this alll too many times, but I never told you enough just how much I love you. I pray to God that you did not do all of this on purpose. ILOVEYOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!! I wonder if you saw your mom last night. That tore everyone all to pieces..You were so beautiful in everyway. and Blake....everytime I saw him, You were there. You were like me and paige. INSEPARABLE. Everything big that has happened to me, you were there. You know EVERYTHING. You could even tell my feelings. after all this time. I remember everything. every laugh. every mean, goofy thing you and Emily did to me. I just thank God you are in a better place....Save me a seat in heaven BueeeJaiiee!!
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