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last night was one of those nights...one of those nights where you get threw the entire day pretending you're okay and everythings fine...only to come home with friends at night and break down because you cant handle the pain anymore. thats what last night was. i went to bed alone...once again...and it just sucks.
it sucks that i leave in 2 months and 2 days and everythings the way it is. we're not together working things out like we should be. we're apart...pretending like we hate each other and are better this way. sure we're both out having fun having a great time. but none of its the same...none of its as good as it could be.
sure...we've had our times where we were anything but perfect. but we've bpth realized that and changed that...
theres just so much potiental...
i know i have to give up i know this is no good for me. i know i have to move on, quit and all that because none of this pain is worth it anymore. but at the same time it is all worth it. at the same time i sit here and tell myself everythings going to be okay and he's gonna wake up and call me and tell me everything will be okay......but i know its all wishful thinking....
proms comming up and im actully pretty excited. im gonna look HOT but im scared at the same time.......
it sucks that i leave in 2 months and 2 days and everythings the way it is. we're not together working things out like we should be. we're apart...pretending like we hate each other and are better this way. sure we're both out having fun having a great time. but none of its the same...none of its as good as it could be.
sure...we've had our times where we were anything but perfect. but we've bpth realized that and changed that...
theres just so much potiental...
i know i have to give up i know this is no good for me. i know i have to move on, quit and all that because none of this pain is worth it anymore. but at the same time it is all worth it. at the same time i sit here and tell myself everythings going to be okay and he's gonna wake up and call me and tell me everything will be okay......but i know its all wishful thinking....
proms comming up and im actully pretty excited. im gonna look HOT but im scared at the same time.......