hes just here, helping me get over you..

[jnycroft]

so yesterday i got a pretty neat surprise...i went to get my hair cut and came out opened my car door and there were tulips and a teddy bear and a note on my seat! yea yea dont be jealous. so bascially they were from demaio and basically he asked me to prom so totally i am going lol. it should be fun minus one little set back. but for one night im not going to let it bother me. it will be weird but oh well im gonna have fun and there aint nothing no one can do to change that. after all its 2 months away things may change by then...

so i got to thinking the other night and i realized that well...i need to be single because thats the only way im going to get outta here. if i was still with don i would have no intention on leaving the area unless i was going with him...if i was with anyone i would have the same intention. but now that im not in a serious relationship im free to get up and get outta here. no one holding me back and in away i love that freedom. sure i miss the way things used to be...but everything happens for a reason...maybe this is what i need...maybe gods telling me to get the fuck out of this place. everyone else is leaving its my turn to leave too.

and thats why thursday...i have an appointment with the recruiter....

and i have alot more to say....but i dont want any of you to read it...so yea its not going to be said..