New look, and another day
Alright. First of all, obviously I changed how this thing looks. I tried green, but it just wasn't right. I tried blue, it didn't work that great either. SO I went back to my favorite, red. Red rules major @$$.
My god... a friend I know from a site just started talking to me. I guess her friend called her, and is thinking about suicide. I hate that word. not only because of what I did, and have thought of, because what has happened. Ann has said she has done it. my grandparents did it before I even knew them. They did it when my dad was real young. My friends knew a guy that killed himself last year, and it hurt them all bad. I couldn't imagine doing it any more, because I know how bad it can make people feel.
I hate the word and thought of suicide now. Brings back too many memories, feelings, and thoughts. I don't want to lose what I have any more, because my life is so great now. What everyone told me was right - things do get better. Mine got a lot better, but it took a while. Thats the hard part of everything. The time in between the good and the bad. It sucks I don't know her, I would want to help.
So I guess I am helping Linda. I found out a little bit of info for her, but haven't been able to tell her it yet. Matt will find out what I need to find out for me. I don't know why I am helping Linda, it won't change anything. Maybe its just because I like to do whats right? Who knows...
Shannan is at Ann's, who knows for how long. So basically I don't get to talk to Ann for a while. She said she doesn't like going too long without talking to me. Its all good, because Lee may come over. he has to shovel and then I might see him online and I will ask. He seems to want to meet Shannan, and she seems like she might want to meet him. Who knows... Shannan won't even be around me in person, so how is she going to meet Lee without me? Lee won't meet her and Ann together, we made the deal. Most likely, if they meet, its going to be all four of us. Well, thats if they decide they want to meet each other.
For some reason, this is a bad day. i can't say why, because I don't know. But I'm happy at the same time.
My god... a friend I know from a site just started talking to me. I guess her friend called her, and is thinking about suicide. I hate that word. not only because of what I did, and have thought of, because what has happened. Ann has said she has done it. my grandparents did it before I even knew them. They did it when my dad was real young. My friends knew a guy that killed himself last year, and it hurt them all bad. I couldn't imagine doing it any more, because I know how bad it can make people feel.
I hate the word and thought of suicide now. Brings back too many memories, feelings, and thoughts. I don't want to lose what I have any more, because my life is so great now. What everyone told me was right - things do get better. Mine got a lot better, but it took a while. Thats the hard part of everything. The time in between the good and the bad. It sucks I don't know her, I would want to help.
So I guess I am helping Linda. I found out a little bit of info for her, but haven't been able to tell her it yet. Matt will find out what I need to find out for me. I don't know why I am helping Linda, it won't change anything. Maybe its just because I like to do whats right? Who knows...
Shannan is at Ann's, who knows for how long. So basically I don't get to talk to Ann for a while. She said she doesn't like going too long without talking to me. Its all good, because Lee may come over. he has to shovel and then I might see him online and I will ask. He seems to want to meet Shannan, and she seems like she might want to meet him. Who knows... Shannan won't even be around me in person, so how is she going to meet Lee without me? Lee won't meet her and Ann together, we made the deal. Most likely, if they meet, its going to be all four of us. Well, thats if they decide they want to meet each other.
For some reason, this is a bad day. i can't say why, because I don't know. But I'm happy at the same time.