One Month (written 4/27/07)
Today is April 27th, which means its been one month since my cousin passed away. I know a lot of you don't care, and won't read this. But I need to say it, I am doing this bulletin for me. I just need to say something about it, because the loss still hurts. I know I am not the only one that it still bothers. Danielle had a lot of people who cared about her a lot, and they will take a long time to get over this, if ever. At the age of 20, you are not supposed to leave all of your friends and family behind.
On the bright side, the very small one that there is, this month has gone by rather fast. I guess it is only appropriate, as I have all of these memories of me and my cousin growing up. It seemed like being kids and growing up went so fast, and was so long ago. So it seems that the time without her is the same, even though I am stuck thinking about her every day. It seems that no matter where I am, or who I am with, I am reminded of my cousin.
Just a few nights ago I was at work, on break. Times like those are the ones that you are stuck, with nothing really to do, so your mind wanders. That is bad, as it just brings my mind back to Danielle. I looked at my phone, and I wanted to finally take her number out of my phone. It took me a few minutes to hit the delete button. Then there is the "Are you sure?" screen... and I tried to hit OK. I pushed and pushed, but I could not get my finger to press OK, and to delete the number from my phone. Only moments later, I was going through my contact list again, and Dave was listed right after Danielle. Sure, its common sense, but it made me smile.
Its been one month since you left, Danielle. That is one month where I felt a piece of me ripped out, and I struggled to find a way to keep you with me. I have your LIVESTRONG wristband... it is with me almost all the time. Without it, I feel incomplete. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
One month, followed by two and three. The times will change, but how much I miss you, will not.
On the bright side, the very small one that there is, this month has gone by rather fast. I guess it is only appropriate, as I have all of these memories of me and my cousin growing up. It seemed like being kids and growing up went so fast, and was so long ago. So it seems that the time without her is the same, even though I am stuck thinking about her every day. It seems that no matter where I am, or who I am with, I am reminded of my cousin.
Just a few nights ago I was at work, on break. Times like those are the ones that you are stuck, with nothing really to do, so your mind wanders. That is bad, as it just brings my mind back to Danielle. I looked at my phone, and I wanted to finally take her number out of my phone. It took me a few minutes to hit the delete button. Then there is the "Are you sure?" screen... and I tried to hit OK. I pushed and pushed, but I could not get my finger to press OK, and to delete the number from my phone. Only moments later, I was going through my contact list again, and Dave was listed right after Danielle. Sure, its common sense, but it made me smile.
Its been one month since you left, Danielle. That is one month where I felt a piece of me ripped out, and I struggled to find a way to keep you with me. I have your LIVESTRONG wristband... it is with me almost all the time. Without it, I feel incomplete. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
One month, followed by two and three. The times will change, but how much I miss you, will not.