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well all the college kids are lingering on back and now my life is about to go back to the lovliness it was.. yea right. Everything has been so messed up lately i don't really know how to handle it. First of all there is the whole tyler situation which is pretty messed up... we havent spoken since christmas.. and i really miss him and i really want us to at least be friends. I've been having a REALLY bad week so far and i tried calling him twice, with no answer each time and i left him a message each time but he hasnt bothered to call me back.. figures. I was supposed to go out to dinner with him mom last night but i've been really sick for the past three days, so icancelled.. but i also think that i cancelled cuz it wouldv'e been too hard to see her.. i probably would've started crying. It's ridiculous how much i miss him. I hate this. And then there is the whole Dustin factor.. OH GOD! things with him and i were good, but then he hung out with his ex g.f(of 3 and a half years) and then he started acting weird and not wanting to talk as much and not wanting to hang out.. which is messed up becuz before he like wanted to see me everyday all day. i've come to the conclusion that he is pushing me away becuz he goes back to school on monday and i think hes afraid to have the feelings he has for me again. *(he told me he was falling in love with me)... Because i know that the feelings i have for him are pretty intense and it scares the shit out of me.. Its the first person after tyler i've cared about.. its hard. And i think that its the same for him. But then i talked to him last night about like everything and hopefully things will go back to the way they were. And i just found out that he and his ex are hangin out today... i feel like i shouldn't be jealous.. but how can i not?? i'm in need of advice please!!!!!