i am updating this for you so you don't look like you died
i am so glad we are where we are right now :( i know we are doing really risky things and i wish we were so much older so we wouldn't have to worry about parents and all that. if i could, i would marry you tomorrow, and you know it. i lovelovelovelove you, pookiehead. i love it when we play around and tickle each other. i love it when you tell me you love me and you get that look on your face that makes me so confident in us. i love it when i'm with you and we can't get enough of each other. i love us so much, and you know it.
i can still remember last year, when we first planned out what we were going to do. go to your house and watch a movie. i remember when we watched donnie darko and we just held onto each other underneath the blankets, not wanting to leave. i remember when we watched just married and you said 'i love you' and i didn't even know what to say. i know the feeling of being cuddled up next to you on your couch, and being wrapped up in your arms so well. i remember behind starbucks and when we'd meet up in front of giant. i remember that one time being huddled up with you and stephanie and hubert and all i wanted to do was be so close to you, and then kelsey and shannon called and i wanted them to just die because i was with you.
i had no idea what we would become, and i have probably told you this so many times. i didn't even expect anything out of that dumb note to kelsey. "he gives me a boner" god that line is so retarded, why did you even talk to me :') i am so glad i wasn't too scared to talk to you and i love how everything worked out so great. i know we have kind of been through a lot of things, a lot of ups and downs, i guess you could say. i know things kind of get blown up at you, mostly because that's what i do best! i'm sorry and i love you and i feel like we can do anything, because we have just gone past so many feelings already. i don't want to get mad at you and i'm sorry if i get paranoid sometimes and just really protective :( i love you so much that sometimes i just go crazy i guess, you know this.
i hope this works, what's happening now. i want us to work out, and i want us to be safe and i cannot wait until we are. when someone asks me what i want to do when i'm older, all i can think about is you. how much i want to just be with you so bad. i don't know what i'd do without you jimmy, i love you so much. i don't want anyone else, everevereverevereverever and i hope everyone can see that. i want my mom to see that, i want just kasjdkasdja everyone to know that.
i want us to grow up, i want us to go past high school, i want us to be able to deal with college. i want us to work, and i need us to work so bad. i love you so much, baby.
xoxoxo sarah
i can still remember last year, when we first planned out what we were going to do. go to your house and watch a movie. i remember when we watched donnie darko and we just held onto each other underneath the blankets, not wanting to leave. i remember when we watched just married and you said 'i love you' and i didn't even know what to say. i know the feeling of being cuddled up next to you on your couch, and being wrapped up in your arms so well. i remember behind starbucks and when we'd meet up in front of giant. i remember that one time being huddled up with you and stephanie and hubert and all i wanted to do was be so close to you, and then kelsey and shannon called and i wanted them to just die because i was with you.
i had no idea what we would become, and i have probably told you this so many times. i didn't even expect anything out of that dumb note to kelsey. "he gives me a boner" god that line is so retarded, why did you even talk to me :') i am so glad i wasn't too scared to talk to you and i love how everything worked out so great. i know we have kind of been through a lot of things, a lot of ups and downs, i guess you could say. i know things kind of get blown up at you, mostly because that's what i do best! i'm sorry and i love you and i feel like we can do anything, because we have just gone past so many feelings already. i don't want to get mad at you and i'm sorry if i get paranoid sometimes and just really protective :( i love you so much that sometimes i just go crazy i guess, you know this.
i hope this works, what's happening now. i want us to work out, and i want us to be safe and i cannot wait until we are. when someone asks me what i want to do when i'm older, all i can think about is you. how much i want to just be with you so bad. i don't know what i'd do without you jimmy, i love you so much. i don't want anyone else, everevereverevereverever and i hope everyone can see that. i want my mom to see that, i want just kasjdkasdja everyone to know that.
i want us to grow up, i want us to go past high school, i want us to be able to deal with college. i want us to work, and i need us to work so bad. i love you so much, baby.
xoxoxo sarah