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its like it doesnt matter how many times i tell you i hate that name, how many times i say im sorry for everything, how many nice things i try to do for you or how many times i say i love you. how many times have i said im sorry for everything and gotten name calling back? it frustrates me that you can stand by calling me a jerk and be so calm when you say it. everything ive ever done since ive known you had been done so with you in the back of my mind. i think about you before every decision i make and ask myself how you would feel because of it. i think about oyu everyday when i wake up and every time i come home from school and everynight when i go to sleep. i think about you so many times during a day youd think i have add because i cant even keep a clear train of thought without drifting back to you. but none of that matters because im still a jerk. i guess thats what im sorry for most of all.