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hey yall. im gettin to where i need to be! i get my engine tomorrow. yes! ive just completed my computerized hunters safety course. i get to kill things now. me and a good friend, mr, bigredneck, aka justin, went up to gainesville today and looked at guns. im getting a 30-30, if money allows. i hope it does. i am not too happy about being single and alone but its not so bad. i dont have to worry bout anyone or think about them, and i have the time and brain capacity to do what ive been wanting to do. ive been having nightmares lately so i havent slept much. i have a hard time sleeping now. ive been listening to this song, maybe youve heard of it, the best of you, and it poses a good question. what was i born for? to resist or be abused? i know what has been happening, that is abused. i am getting tired of it. i get a new car at the end of my senior year. hmmm, what should it be? i still havent smoked any more natural herbal substances in a long time. im proud of me. i have a plan to quit cigarettes before the beginning of the school year. you know. i dont know how i was so blind to see. oh well, it doesnt matter anymore. i just need to have fun and forget all of the bad things. i want to remember the good, but it only brings up bad thoughts. my dad has displayed pix in the living room, so i turned them face down. ill bet in others eyes i am the bad one in this again somehow. well, fuck them all. i dont care. thanks for all you didnt do, it was fun for a while then fucked up while it lasted. that is the last i will speak of it. bye everyone. take it easy, or not depending on who reads this...