i feel unsafe
ok, so...liz, you're probably the only one in the world nudging me to update this thing. here we go...
my new years...total crap. i dont want to discuss why or the details or any of that for fear of an "i told you so" out there somewhere. because, essentially, the crappiness of my new year revolves around my choices and i almost completely blame myself for having to endure what i did. in the past year or more, i have put all the people that ever cared about me on the back burner in hopes of attaining the unattainable. This new years experience has completely opened my eyes and i WONT make that mistake again. so, for anyone who is willing to give me the time of day after so long, i extend my every free moment to you and whatever you would like to do whenever you would like to do it. the only thing that will stop me is my work schedule. so whenever i am not at work, we can have fun...even at my expense, if need be. i make a decent amount of money now, i can afford to spoil those i've managed to alienate if they'll still have me.
on the upshot...
1.) my parents are in good health
2.) i am making money that i can both save and spend at my leisure...my past has been living paycheck to paycheck, so i find this wonderful
3.) i have dedicated this year to bettering myself and my relationships with everyone in my life that i miss...including books, studying, and writing. in fact, i exercised this morning! and i plan on doing that almost every morning!
4.) if i better myself to a certain point, it may completely change my life. but, this will take time and observation. i know this sounds cryptic, but i really dont want to give detail until i know something. so now, we wait.
5.) my car still rocks
and for now, that is all i will give. however, i plan on keeping track of my progress, and i guess this is a good way to do that. so, i guess i'll be updating more frequently now.
take it easy, everyone.
health and happiness to you all.
my new years...total crap. i dont want to discuss why or the details or any of that for fear of an "i told you so" out there somewhere. because, essentially, the crappiness of my new year revolves around my choices and i almost completely blame myself for having to endure what i did. in the past year or more, i have put all the people that ever cared about me on the back burner in hopes of attaining the unattainable. This new years experience has completely opened my eyes and i WONT make that mistake again. so, for anyone who is willing to give me the time of day after so long, i extend my every free moment to you and whatever you would like to do whenever you would like to do it. the only thing that will stop me is my work schedule. so whenever i am not at work, we can have fun...even at my expense, if need be. i make a decent amount of money now, i can afford to spoil those i've managed to alienate if they'll still have me.
on the upshot...
1.) my parents are in good health
2.) i am making money that i can both save and spend at my leisure...my past has been living paycheck to paycheck, so i find this wonderful
3.) i have dedicated this year to bettering myself and my relationships with everyone in my life that i miss...including books, studying, and writing. in fact, i exercised this morning! and i plan on doing that almost every morning!
4.) if i better myself to a certain point, it may completely change my life. but, this will take time and observation. i know this sounds cryptic, but i really dont want to give detail until i know something. so now, we wait.
5.) my car still rocks
and for now, that is all i will give. however, i plan on keeping track of my progress, and i guess this is a good way to do that. so, i guess i'll be updating more frequently now.
take it easy, everyone.
health and happiness to you all.