ON/OFF Screen [Chapter 14]
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This chapter has an NC-17 in one part. So you need an ID to see that part :D
Well as not all of it is NC-17 (only one section, the rest is PG-13 (or R, I am not really that sure) as usual), there's a link for the mature readers to read the NC-17 part to another post (the link says PART 14B). Which has to be viewed as a friend of mine as it is a protected entry. So just leave a comment (or PM me if you want to be discreet but I prefer comments) stating your age (you have to be at least 17 years old) and put in the subject "To read PART 14B" and I'll add you as a friend. If you don't want to read it, it is fine as well, as you will not miss out anything from the story, just some uncensored sexiness XD I am online all day through my mobile phone so I can add you as a friend immediately.
I am sorry that I have to do this because I have put PG-13 from the start and perhaps I've attracted younger readers for doing so (or ones who doesn't like NC-17 stuff). So this is the least that I can do to be responsible with what I write. I hope you will understand and would not be too much of an obstruction. The entry is no longer f-locked as I've put the entire journal on adult content setting or whatever it is that LJ called it :)
And I have a bad news. I don't think I will be able to post any update tomorrow :( I have such a full day at work but I promise I'll be back updating on Friday. Sorry about that.
Again, thank you so much for reading this. As always, comments, criticism and input will be highly appreciated. If you haven't read the previous chapters, you can always refer to the master post
CHAPTER 14
「How To Say That 4 Letter Word」
This is the first time I've ever been in a man's apartment without anyone else around. Just us two.
I just had my first kiss at 25 years old, so what do you expect..
I've always been so protective over myself. Letting him in this easily has surprised myself. But whenever he looks at me with that big chocolate eyes, all defenses crumble to pieces. As exactly what he is doing now when he opens his apartment door and letting me coming in first. I melt by his soft push on my back. And all the reluctancies disappear, just like that.
His apartment has the same tone as his eyes. I feel at home all of a sudden. The wooden floor, wooden table and warm colored furnitures. It reminds me of his parents' home. It is the exact opposite of the image he portrays when he is on screen. Nothing is too glamorous even though the apartment is spacious. But after knowing him better this past few weeks, I was not surprised at all.
I smile at him as he takes off his jacket, "No wonder you said that my apartment is in serious need of tidying up."
Jun-kun just raises an eyebrow, "Even if you don't compare it to mine, it still needs a lot of tidying up."
Then he cracks a smile I haven't seen all night, "I am not doing that much these days, so I have time to clean up. If I had your schedule, or Nino's, it would look just like yours."
His smile fades as he mentions Nino's name.
"I'll just go change first, do you mind?" He softly asks as he opens his bedroom door.
"Take your time," I nod to him as I walk around his living room.
As I look around, I conclude that Jun-kun really is a methodical person. It is not that it is extremely clean or entirely spotless. It has its slight telltale here and there that a guy is living here all by himself somehow. But everything is in order. The way he arranges his DVDs in alphabetical order. The way he lines up his books from bigger to smaller. I reach for one and open the first page. He even signed that book, noting the date of when he started to read it and when he actually finished it. For once I forgot how nervous I am, and let out a small smile. That cool guy is actually a geek after all.
His bedroom door opens and he catches me grinning wide, "Something funny?"
"You are. You put in the dates of when you start reading and when you finish it," I look up to him. He is already in a white v-neck T-shirt, dark grey training pants and eyeglasses.
He chuckles, "Am I too geeky for you?" I can't help to notice a hint of seductiveness in his tone.
He clears his throat and open his bedroom door wider, "By the way, do you want to change? Those are your costumes for Garasu, right?"
I peek into his bedroom. A few pair of pajamas, training pants and shirts are folded neatly on top of the big bed. There's not much furniture. Just the bed, nightstand, lamp, alarm clock. A very normal bedroom.
I walk in slowly and take a look at the clothing he prepared for me. The pants are girls' items whilst the tops are men's.
"The bottoms are Nee-chan's," he mutters softly, as if reading my mind, "the tops are mine. I hope it is fine. Just take a pick of whatever fits best."
"Oh.." Then I smile nervously before closing the bedroom door, "Thanks. It's perfect."
---
I've changed into his checkered shirt, which is obviously a lot bigger than my size and training pants.
When I come out of the door, he looks up as he prepare us some tea. He studies me and smiles, as if happy seeing me wearing his clothes.
And as we each drink our tea across each other, he keeps eyeing me. I catch his gaze and he doesn't look away. We stay like that for a while. Eyes lock on each other in silence. I can only hear the slurping of the hot teas once in a while, his soft breathing and my very own heartbeat.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
He then puts his cup of tea down and walks over to me. Closer and closer until he is standing just inches away. He tuck my hair aside to each side of my ears before he closes in to give one passionate kiss.
And I kiss him back. Just as passionate. Just as hungry. Just as deep. His breathing becomes heavier and so does mine.
I pull away to catch some breath, put away his glasses and kiss him some more again. He then take me by my thighs as I put my arms around him and put me down to sit on top of the kitchen's counter. I become just as tall as him. I could feel the hard bulge underneath his pants on my crotch as he closes in his body to mine.
He pulls away to catch his breath, only inches away from my face.
"Ah, yabai," he whispers in between his heavy breaths.
He opens his eyes as I open mine and immediately I get drowned in those chocolate eyes. He keeps giving me quick pecks on my lips, my nose, my eyelid, my cheekbone and back to the lips again. At the same time, his hands are caressing my back, my waist underneath the shirt I am wearing and I can feel his soft touch on my skin.
He then pulls away his hand from underneath my shirt to hold my head both sides and give me another kiss that could stop the world from spinning.
"I want you," his husky voice mutters as he broke away from the kiss and put his forehead on mine. His fingers start to unbutton his shirt that I am wearing one by one.
And I let him. I want him to want me. I want him to have me.
All of me. Tonight. In this very moment.
「Continue to PART 14B (Rating: NC-17, please read my author's note carefully for instructions on how to access this part)」
---
We lay there on his bed both on our sides, facing each other. He plays with my hair, circling some strands to one finger. His gaze locks on mine.
He whispers softly after a long silence, "You didn't tell me.."
"If I did told you.. would you not want to do that?" I form a line with my finger from his forehead to the tip of his nose.
"It's not like that.."
"Would you have taken care of me less?" I ask again. I take one of his hand and tangle his fingers together with mine.
He eyes my face with that pair of chocolate eyes that I adore, "It would not change anything.. I would still want you as much, would still trying my best to take care of you.."
"Then it doesn't matter," I give him a small smile, as I give his hand a squeeze. He squeezes it back.
He pulls me closer to give me a hug, "I'm sorry," he mutters in my hair.
"No, Jun, please don't say sorry," I pull myself away to say the words right into his eyes. "I don't have any regrets. I want you too. I want to be closer to you."
I add in a low voice, feeling my cheeks blush, "I want you to be my first."
He studies my eyes closely before one of his fingers lift up my chin and gives me a quick tender kiss on my lips. Then, again. And again. And again. And again.
"So.." I whisper between those kisses, "Does this mean we are going out now?"
I'm beginning to learn that Jun-kun is not the type that speaks about these kind of things out loud. But I just gotta know.
But he just smirks, before giving those quick tender kisses again, "If we are not, then what are we then?"
I pull a small smile, half-teasingly, "Uhm, friends?"
He gives me a longer one this one time, "Any of your friends kiss you like this?"
"Well, no.." I am losing my breathing again.
He pulls my waist closer and runs a finger along my bare back sending me shivers down my spine, "Touch you like this?"
"No.."
As we lose ourselves again in our embrace, I then realize at the back of my mind that he doesn't actually answer my question.
---
I open my eyes slowly when the sun peeks behind the curtains of his room. I snuggle to the pillow as I catch his scent and drown myself for a second longer there. That's when I realize that he is not there anymore.
I sit up straight and look around. But then I hear him humming some tunes outside the bedroom. I listen to it for a while.
Is this the sound of happiness?
I let out a small sigh and get up the bed and finds that he already folded the clothes I wore last night neatly at the edge of the bed. I pick it up and bring them with me to the bathroom.
As I see the girl in the reflection on the bathroom mirror looking back at me, I smile at her brightly.
---
Jun-kun immediately looks up from washing the dishes as I walk out of the bedroom. He is already in his damaged jeans and a black V-neck T-shirt.
He turns off the running water and wipes his wet hands to his jeans before he walks over to me and pulls me close, giving me a light peck on the lips.
"Ohayou~," he whispers huskily.
"Ohayou.." I answer just as softly, brushing my nose to his. "Sorry, I woke up late."
"Don't be sorry," still in a whisper, "I enjoy watching you sleep."
He pulls away after kissing the tip of my nose, "I made some miso soup and hand rolls if you want some breakfast."
He takes my hand and escort me to sit on one of the kitchen's stool.
"Thank you," I grin widely as I see the cute hand roll sushis and smell the inviting scent of the miso soup.
"You don't have anything scheduled for today?" He asks as he watches me starting to eat.
I shake my head, "I was supposed to have the whole day shooting with Nino. But AD-san has told me that all shoots are postponed until he is better."
He nods softly before his cellphone on top of the kitchen counter rings. Instead of picking it up, he just stares at it blankly.
"Who is it, Jun-kun?" I asks him carefully as I take a bite of the hand roll. It tastes delicious.
"My manager," he says with a shrug. "He is waiting for me at the Jimusho. Johnny-san is already waiting."
I quickly swallow the delicious sushi, and take another bite, preparing to just eat them on the go, "Oh, I'm sorry. I almost forgot you have an early meeting with him."
"No, no," he pushes me softly to my seat again. "Finish your breakfast first. You can just stay here. I won't be long."
"But.."
"I'll pick you up later to go to the hospital to see Nino. Will that be okay?"
"But isn't the hospital closer from the Jimusho?"
"It's fine," he waves a hand.
"No, I'll let myself out and meet you at the hospital. I need to change to some clothes as well. I can take the taxi home."
He gives me a reluctant look. But before he opens his mouth to protest, I already beat him to it, "It's fine. Really. You should just go. You are already in a big trouble as it is."
He lets out a small smirk, "I honestly don't really care that much. Which kinda surprises me as well."
"Just go."
He looks at me in the eyes and sees the determination right there.
"Okay," he finally gives in and puts on his dark grey coat that has been lying on a stool beside me.
Then he puts his hand in his pockets, fidgeting from one leg to the next. Opens his mouth then closes it again the next second as if trying to decide what to say.
I raises my eyebrows questionably.
Is he nervous? After what happened last night he is still able to feel nervous around me?
I chuckle at the thought and asks him teasingly, "What is it, Jun-kun?"
He then takes out a key from one of his jeans pocket and put it on the kitchen counter next to my miso soup.
"Here. It's for you," He mutters in a low voice.
I stare at the key with an open mouth, "Is it..?"
"It's my second key. To this apartment. It's yours now," he smiles shyly at me as he catches my eyes.
A big grin blooms on my face and I run out of my seat to jump into his arms. He catches me with a soft laugh and hugs me tightly.
"I love you," I whisper as his scent sweeps over me.
He breaks away from the hug and kisses me dearly, one on the lips, one on the nose and one on my forehead.
"Hontou?" he asks, also in a whisper.
I nod with a big smile and he returns that smile just as brightly and pulls me in for another hug.
After a while, he finally pulls away, brushing away some hair off my face.
"Ja, ittekimasu.."
"Itteirashai.."
He bites his underlip as if holding back from another kiss before finally heads to the apartment door and closes it behind him.
My grin becomes wider and wider as I pick up the key he has left behind for me.
I don't mind that he doesn't say 'I love you, too' back to my confession.
Because I know, by giving me this very key, it is his own way of telling me how he feels about me.
Continue to Chapter 15
Well as not all of it is NC-17 (only one section, the rest is PG-13 (or R, I am not really that sure) as usual), there's a link for the mature readers to read the NC-17 part to another post (the link says PART 14B). Which has to be viewed as a friend of mine as it is a protected entry. So just leave a comment (or PM me if you want to be discreet but I prefer comments) stating your age (you have to be at least 17 years old) and put in the subject "To read PART 14B" and I'll add you as a friend. If you don't want to read it, it is fine as well, as you will not miss out anything from the story, just some uncensored sexiness XD I am online all day through my mobile phone so I can add you as a friend immediately.
I am sorry that I have to do this because I have put PG-13 from the start and perhaps I've attracted younger readers for doing so (or ones who doesn't like NC-17 stuff). So this is the least that I can do to be responsible with what I write. I hope you will understand and would not be too much of an obstruction. The entry is no longer f-locked as I've put the entire journal on adult content setting or whatever it is that LJ called it :)
And I have a bad news. I don't think I will be able to post any update tomorrow :( I have such a full day at work but I promise I'll be back updating on Friday. Sorry about that.
Again, thank you so much for reading this. As always, comments, criticism and input will be highly appreciated. If you haven't read the previous chapters, you can always refer to the master post
CHAPTER 14
「How To Say That 4 Letter Word」
This is the first time I've ever been in a man's apartment without anyone else around. Just us two.
I just had my first kiss at 25 years old, so what do you expect..
I've always been so protective over myself. Letting him in this easily has surprised myself. But whenever he looks at me with that big chocolate eyes, all defenses crumble to pieces. As exactly what he is doing now when he opens his apartment door and letting me coming in first. I melt by his soft push on my back. And all the reluctancies disappear, just like that.
His apartment has the same tone as his eyes. I feel at home all of a sudden. The wooden floor, wooden table and warm colored furnitures. It reminds me of his parents' home. It is the exact opposite of the image he portrays when he is on screen. Nothing is too glamorous even though the apartment is spacious. But after knowing him better this past few weeks, I was not surprised at all.
I smile at him as he takes off his jacket, "No wonder you said that my apartment is in serious need of tidying up."
Jun-kun just raises an eyebrow, "Even if you don't compare it to mine, it still needs a lot of tidying up."
Then he cracks a smile I haven't seen all night, "I am not doing that much these days, so I have time to clean up. If I had your schedule, or Nino's, it would look just like yours."
His smile fades as he mentions Nino's name.
"I'll just go change first, do you mind?" He softly asks as he opens his bedroom door.
"Take your time," I nod to him as I walk around his living room.
As I look around, I conclude that Jun-kun really is a methodical person. It is not that it is extremely clean or entirely spotless. It has its slight telltale here and there that a guy is living here all by himself somehow. But everything is in order. The way he arranges his DVDs in alphabetical order. The way he lines up his books from bigger to smaller. I reach for one and open the first page. He even signed that book, noting the date of when he started to read it and when he actually finished it. For once I forgot how nervous I am, and let out a small smile. That cool guy is actually a geek after all.
His bedroom door opens and he catches me grinning wide, "Something funny?"
"You are. You put in the dates of when you start reading and when you finish it," I look up to him. He is already in a white v-neck T-shirt, dark grey training pants and eyeglasses.
He chuckles, "Am I too geeky for you?" I can't help to notice a hint of seductiveness in his tone.
He clears his throat and open his bedroom door wider, "By the way, do you want to change? Those are your costumes for Garasu, right?"
I peek into his bedroom. A few pair of pajamas, training pants and shirts are folded neatly on top of the big bed. There's not much furniture. Just the bed, nightstand, lamp, alarm clock. A very normal bedroom.
I walk in slowly and take a look at the clothing he prepared for me. The pants are girls' items whilst the tops are men's.
"The bottoms are Nee-chan's," he mutters softly, as if reading my mind, "the tops are mine. I hope it is fine. Just take a pick of whatever fits best."
"Oh.." Then I smile nervously before closing the bedroom door, "Thanks. It's perfect."
---
I've changed into his checkered shirt, which is obviously a lot bigger than my size and training pants.
When I come out of the door, he looks up as he prepare us some tea. He studies me and smiles, as if happy seeing me wearing his clothes.
And as we each drink our tea across each other, he keeps eyeing me. I catch his gaze and he doesn't look away. We stay like that for a while. Eyes lock on each other in silence. I can only hear the slurping of the hot teas once in a while, his soft breathing and my very own heartbeat.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
He then puts his cup of tea down and walks over to me. Closer and closer until he is standing just inches away. He tuck my hair aside to each side of my ears before he closes in to give one passionate kiss.
And I kiss him back. Just as passionate. Just as hungry. Just as deep. His breathing becomes heavier and so does mine.
I pull away to catch some breath, put away his glasses and kiss him some more again. He then take me by my thighs as I put my arms around him and put me down to sit on top of the kitchen's counter. I become just as tall as him. I could feel the hard bulge underneath his pants on my crotch as he closes in his body to mine.
He pulls away to catch his breath, only inches away from my face.
"Ah, yabai," he whispers in between his heavy breaths.
He opens his eyes as I open mine and immediately I get drowned in those chocolate eyes. He keeps giving me quick pecks on my lips, my nose, my eyelid, my cheekbone and back to the lips again. At the same time, his hands are caressing my back, my waist underneath the shirt I am wearing and I can feel his soft touch on my skin.
He then pulls away his hand from underneath my shirt to hold my head both sides and give me another kiss that could stop the world from spinning.
"I want you," his husky voice mutters as he broke away from the kiss and put his forehead on mine. His fingers start to unbutton his shirt that I am wearing one by one.
And I let him. I want him to want me. I want him to have me.
All of me. Tonight. In this very moment.
「Continue to PART 14B (Rating: NC-17, please read my author's note carefully for instructions on how to access this part)」
---
We lay there on his bed both on our sides, facing each other. He plays with my hair, circling some strands to one finger. His gaze locks on mine.
He whispers softly after a long silence, "You didn't tell me.."
"If I did told you.. would you not want to do that?" I form a line with my finger from his forehead to the tip of his nose.
"It's not like that.."
"Would you have taken care of me less?" I ask again. I take one of his hand and tangle his fingers together with mine.
He eyes my face with that pair of chocolate eyes that I adore, "It would not change anything.. I would still want you as much, would still trying my best to take care of you.."
"Then it doesn't matter," I give him a small smile, as I give his hand a squeeze. He squeezes it back.
He pulls me closer to give me a hug, "I'm sorry," he mutters in my hair.
"No, Jun, please don't say sorry," I pull myself away to say the words right into his eyes. "I don't have any regrets. I want you too. I want to be closer to you."
I add in a low voice, feeling my cheeks blush, "I want you to be my first."
He studies my eyes closely before one of his fingers lift up my chin and gives me a quick tender kiss on my lips. Then, again. And again. And again. And again.
"So.." I whisper between those kisses, "Does this mean we are going out now?"
I'm beginning to learn that Jun-kun is not the type that speaks about these kind of things out loud. But I just gotta know.
But he just smirks, before giving those quick tender kisses again, "If we are not, then what are we then?"
I pull a small smile, half-teasingly, "Uhm, friends?"
He gives me a longer one this one time, "Any of your friends kiss you like this?"
"Well, no.." I am losing my breathing again.
He pulls my waist closer and runs a finger along my bare back sending me shivers down my spine, "Touch you like this?"
"No.."
As we lose ourselves again in our embrace, I then realize at the back of my mind that he doesn't actually answer my question.
---
I open my eyes slowly when the sun peeks behind the curtains of his room. I snuggle to the pillow as I catch his scent and drown myself for a second longer there. That's when I realize that he is not there anymore.
I sit up straight and look around. But then I hear him humming some tunes outside the bedroom. I listen to it for a while.
Is this the sound of happiness?
I let out a small sigh and get up the bed and finds that he already folded the clothes I wore last night neatly at the edge of the bed. I pick it up and bring them with me to the bathroom.
As I see the girl in the reflection on the bathroom mirror looking back at me, I smile at her brightly.
---
Jun-kun immediately looks up from washing the dishes as I walk out of the bedroom. He is already in his damaged jeans and a black V-neck T-shirt.
He turns off the running water and wipes his wet hands to his jeans before he walks over to me and pulls me close, giving me a light peck on the lips.
"Ohayou~," he whispers huskily.
"Ohayou.." I answer just as softly, brushing my nose to his. "Sorry, I woke up late."
"Don't be sorry," still in a whisper, "I enjoy watching you sleep."
He pulls away after kissing the tip of my nose, "I made some miso soup and hand rolls if you want some breakfast."
He takes my hand and escort me to sit on one of the kitchen's stool.
"Thank you," I grin widely as I see the cute hand roll sushis and smell the inviting scent of the miso soup.
"You don't have anything scheduled for today?" He asks as he watches me starting to eat.
I shake my head, "I was supposed to have the whole day shooting with Nino. But AD-san has told me that all shoots are postponed until he is better."
He nods softly before his cellphone on top of the kitchen counter rings. Instead of picking it up, he just stares at it blankly.
"Who is it, Jun-kun?" I asks him carefully as I take a bite of the hand roll. It tastes delicious.
"My manager," he says with a shrug. "He is waiting for me at the Jimusho. Johnny-san is already waiting."
I quickly swallow the delicious sushi, and take another bite, preparing to just eat them on the go, "Oh, I'm sorry. I almost forgot you have an early meeting with him."
"No, no," he pushes me softly to my seat again. "Finish your breakfast first. You can just stay here. I won't be long."
"But.."
"I'll pick you up later to go to the hospital to see Nino. Will that be okay?"
"But isn't the hospital closer from the Jimusho?"
"It's fine," he waves a hand.
"No, I'll let myself out and meet you at the hospital. I need to change to some clothes as well. I can take the taxi home."
He gives me a reluctant look. But before he opens his mouth to protest, I already beat him to it, "It's fine. Really. You should just go. You are already in a big trouble as it is."
He lets out a small smirk, "I honestly don't really care that much. Which kinda surprises me as well."
"Just go."
He looks at me in the eyes and sees the determination right there.
"Okay," he finally gives in and puts on his dark grey coat that has been lying on a stool beside me.
Then he puts his hand in his pockets, fidgeting from one leg to the next. Opens his mouth then closes it again the next second as if trying to decide what to say.
I raises my eyebrows questionably.
Is he nervous? After what happened last night he is still able to feel nervous around me?
I chuckle at the thought and asks him teasingly, "What is it, Jun-kun?"
He then takes out a key from one of his jeans pocket and put it on the kitchen counter next to my miso soup.
"Here. It's for you," He mutters in a low voice.
I stare at the key with an open mouth, "Is it..?"
"It's my second key. To this apartment. It's yours now," he smiles shyly at me as he catches my eyes.
A big grin blooms on my face and I run out of my seat to jump into his arms. He catches me with a soft laugh and hugs me tightly.
"I love you," I whisper as his scent sweeps over me.
He breaks away from the hug and kisses me dearly, one on the lips, one on the nose and one on my forehead.
"Hontou?" he asks, also in a whisper.
I nod with a big smile and he returns that smile just as brightly and pulls me in for another hug.
After a while, he finally pulls away, brushing away some hair off my face.
"Ja, ittekimasu.."
"Itteirashai.."
He bites his underlip as if holding back from another kiss before finally heads to the apartment door and closes it behind him.
My grin becomes wider and wider as I pick up the key he has left behind for me.
I don't mind that he doesn't say 'I love you, too' back to my confession.
Because I know, by giving me this very key, it is his own way of telling me how he feels about me.
Continue to Chapter 15