40 days and nights of rain
its so dreary out. it makes you want to sleep. although as usual my thoughs keep me awake. i hate when you realize how long its been since you talked to someone and then how you really have no reason for it. lately, my life has been filled with dilemmas. staying or going. big or little. near or far. i guess if we had all the answers there would be nothing to do. i guess if we didnt have controversy we wouldnt grow. i only wish it happened more easily, with less pain, and better results. maybe we look too much for a resolution and not a solution. we end the problem not stop it. just because it ends doesnt mean its over. i should take the offer i was given. i never do. but i should. i am too afraid to committ to anything. perhaps because i think it will be the wrong decision. perhaps because i think, "what will they say about me if i do this or do that." why dont i think, "that sounds good. yes i will." decide for once. be brave. toe the line. jump the gun. bold is beautiful. daring is better.