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[jmob]

why is it that every tuesday night at jazz i always wanna cry?
or should i say "feel like cryin'" (ha yea thats actually in our song)
but seriously
why do i just start sobbing sometimes?
i don't know whats wrong with me
well actually i kinda do
for starters, just look at me.
and it's not like anybody even knows who i am
and if they do, it's not like they want to know me anyway.
why do i long to be a part of things that i could never be a part of, and for things that i could never have?
there's nothing special about me
i'm nobody's favorite
i'm not great at anything
apparently i can't even speak
what was the point of working hard in middle school?
i acheived so high back then
it obviously doesn't even matter now
i probably won't even get into any good colleges after how poorly this most important year of my high school career is going.

Let's just say that band and all band-related activies have been my salvation for these past 2 years. I don't even know what my life would be like without the people that I've met through it.

There are also some people that I really miss.