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i dont want to fall asleep because the past three or four nights of sleep i have had bad dreams.
i hate my insecurities. and i blame them on my inability to understand that nothing in the past is a result of me being an inferior person or less than acceptable friend.
id never be like this if people weren't so horribly shitty to me in the past.
i guess sometimes i get angry about things because i have never done anything to hurt someone on purpose... if anything i am too forgiving of everyone around me.
i always want to see the best in people.
when really, i let the them get the best of me.
i took my chance at happiness and God has seriously blessed me with more happiness than i could handle at times.
im just glad that even when i close my eyes and i have horrible dreams, that i wake up to a life that i appreciate.
a life where my dad loves me and would do anything for my dreams and to just spend time with his baby girl!
where the few amazing girl friends that i have are the most incredible people to walk the face of the earth.
and most of all where i can 100% trust the one person that knows me the best without a single doubt.
bad dreams at night are making me thankful for the life i lead.
I am on a road to a comfortable life making good money, with a good future hubby and a great family to enjoy the ride with.
although high school was sucky for awhile in certain aspects... i love that there is happiness now!
sooo thankful...
but i still don't want to go to sleep.
i hate my insecurities. and i blame them on my inability to understand that nothing in the past is a result of me being an inferior person or less than acceptable friend.
id never be like this if people weren't so horribly shitty to me in the past.
i guess sometimes i get angry about things because i have never done anything to hurt someone on purpose... if anything i am too forgiving of everyone around me.
i always want to see the best in people.
when really, i let the them get the best of me.
i took my chance at happiness and God has seriously blessed me with more happiness than i could handle at times.
im just glad that even when i close my eyes and i have horrible dreams, that i wake up to a life that i appreciate.
a life where my dad loves me and would do anything for my dreams and to just spend time with his baby girl!
where the few amazing girl friends that i have are the most incredible people to walk the face of the earth.
and most of all where i can 100% trust the one person that knows me the best without a single doubt.
bad dreams at night are making me thankful for the life i lead.
I am on a road to a comfortable life making good money, with a good future hubby and a great family to enjoy the ride with.
although high school was sucky for awhile in certain aspects... i love that there is happiness now!
sooo thankful...
but i still don't want to go to sleep.