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SO, I did some research online today.
I Found a good website for vision improvement without glasses. Maybe I'll talk to MR. Burkey about that kind of stuff too.
Also, I had a thought, "What is the difference between real and fake breasts?"
So I did some research. In addition to finding answers and being able to identify real from fake pretty well I learned that men used to think of women's ankles as um... a turn on? Yes, thats the word.
So. What you like about a woman's body is therefor related to how society is at that current time. But then again... If I wasn't turned on by any feature of the opposite sex, what would be the point of being straight?
It seems that a turn on is based on association. So if I associate my carpet floor with sex, that might turn me on too... Reality sucks...
SO, as for the question of fake breasts...
Is it superficial to have fake breasts? I could say that. I could also say that it is superficial to wear makeup. But then couldn't I just say that the whole body, every piece of it, is superficial? Then what?
In conclusion. Beauty is not in the eye of the beholder. Because I believe true beauty is a result of good health. Makeup mimmicks good health.
As for real vrs. fake breasts... I would have to get with at least 2 women, one with real and one with fake to come to a conclusion. And I am not sure if that will happen. Though I think the major question is not, "Do I like fake breasts or real?" The question is, do women prefer the feeling of them? Or are they like high heel shoes? They look good on you but hurt and have health implications.
Well, after doing some research I took this test and got a 17 out of 20. Then I took it again and got 19 out of 20. Technically my research is much different than looking at pornography, seeing that... who in there right mind looks at porn and goes "hmm... thats interesting."???
Ok. Me. But not all the time.
Well if anyone is interested, here is the test. I guess it qualifies as explicit content, so be warned. But then again, its just breasts... and silicon.
http://www.starcarlton.com/zips/Silicon.htm
Its been argued that since the breasts serve no reproductive function, they are not supposed to be a NATURAL enticer for sexual arousement. But I though I read somewhere that women can have an orgasm through stimulation of the breasts.
List of things that turns John (me) on:
Physiological
(In order from top to bottom)
Long hair. (Especially wet.)
Breasts. A handful is substaintial. So about C. Though smaller is okay on smaller people because of their proportion to the rest of the body.
Stomach. Firm and flat is nice. Though for the most part, I think it is very rare to find someone with C or above and still having that kind of stomach. Just because breast size seems to be related to body fat content.
Legs. Long legs are nice. But I dont have a foot fetish.
Appearance, but not Physiological.
The following applies only to white people: Tan skin or pale skin. One or the other. Though I don't like "SO tan that I look like I changed my race."
Eye color: Don't really care. I dont make much eye contact anyways. Though I do think black is really cool because then the iris matches with the pupil.
Psychological
Not a bitch.
Talks with you when something goes wrong rather than yell and scream.
Understanding of other people's positions. Not just totally self centered. Empathetic.
Intelligent.
Artistic.
Athletic. (Preferably a gymnast.)
Weird. I dont care for people who act or think like the majority.
Fun loving and childish at times. No matter how old I am, I will always act like a child when it comes to enjoying myself.
In the end, I guess the content of one's character is most important to me. Seeing that eventually, we will be old and unattractive... Then again... That is like saying we will all be cripil before we die. But... not in my family.
But, I mean. Good looks leads to physical attraction. So if I am not considering someones "Looks" then I am not considering physical attraction. ANd therefor I am only considering that individual in terms of friendship. OR I am BI-SEXUAL. BUt not really bisexual... Because though a person could perfer either sex for a lasting relationship, it would not involve sex.
So I dont think I would consider myself bisexual. But then again, maybe everyone is bisexual. Because it is all about SEXUAL preference. So, I perfer girls over guys. Just like I perfer food over poison. Bla... I think too much.
A true optimist knows the truth about life, but still is happy. In my oppinion. Because the more you learn, the more the magic of life slips away. Its kind of like, "Sure santa isn't real, but you don't see me crying." But on a more developed level.
"Merry meet and merry part." I think thats a good way of living. Even when it applies to the newly dead and the divorced.
Sure. Maybe I am giving away a little too much information. But I perfer people who can accept my thoughts. Therefor I don't make friends with preechers.
Oh. And during my art trip to traverse city, I found out that David Tackett died. He got hit by some type of motor vehicle. He used to live on the corner on my block. His father was a preecher and his family hated me.
The thing I wonder about myself is, why don't I have emotion when people die? My mom was talking about my family, her family. And said that no one cried at our grandmother's funeral. She said that that was sick, wrong, messed up etc. But then again... From a christian perspective, they went to a better place. SO you should be happy. And if you are not, you are just being selfish because you want that person but you cant have them. From my perspective, a person who died 100 years ago gets just as much emotion from me as a person who died last night. Without the ego, all deaths are just as meaningfull or meaningless. Why is it more important that a friend dies than someone you don't know?
I dont think of myself as a psychopath though. I don't like to see people suffer. I don't like to see blood. I don' like to hurt others physically or emotionally.
I guess maybe... Lets say I know Mr. Joe. I would be sad if my friend Mr.Joe moved away. I would be EQUALLY sad if Mr. Joe moved away far away. (But still living.)
I guess there is no way for me to know how I will feel about someone's death until it occurs.
But as for everything I say, I only say it if I mean it. ANd therefor it carries a lot of meaning. I don't mis-use or overuse the word "LOVE" and the same will go for "I'll miss you if you die."
Plus, words are just words. Maybe my words are more creditable. But if people dont know that, It doesn't mean anything.
It looks like this is turning into a rant. But think of this rant as this.... This is what is happening in my head most of the time. This is my inner diologue.
I remember one time Amanda questioned me as to why I read my books. My books being things like "The science of breath.", "Buckland's book of spirit communication.", "Your psychic powers and how to develope them." etc..
She said something like, "You just want to be special, and you think that with this you can end up being different from everyone else. But it wont work and in the end your just like everyone else."
There is something about that that makes me smile and almost laugh. I dont understand, because it seems like something that should piss me off. Or at least make me question myself. But then again, I dont think of this stuff as something special. I think psychic ability is inherent in everyone. It is not supernatural. It does not make you special, it makes you normal. And most people are not normal...
Its the same reasoning that makes me say, "The majority should not be used as the standard for sanity since the majority is not sane." Therefor, the majority of people have not realized their full psychic potential, if any at all.
Think about it like this, if I were knocked into a coma and woke up. My muscles would be so weak I could not use them. Psychic powers, having been neglected like this from birth, are similar to this. Its not really psychic training, it is psychic rehabilitation.... But not even that. Its like being born and nocked into acoma. You need to strengthen your muscles. (Rehabilitation.) and then learn to walk. (Train.) All the trouble that could have been saved if parents would just ask their 2 year old child, "What am I thinking now?"
Its almost 6am.... I've stayed up all night. I did this last night... Went to bed at 8:00 am and got up at 6:00 pm.... I cant do that today... I need to do my report and such. But I couldn't go to sleep, I wasn't tired...
I Found a good website for vision improvement without glasses. Maybe I'll talk to MR. Burkey about that kind of stuff too.
Also, I had a thought, "What is the difference between real and fake breasts?"
So I did some research. In addition to finding answers and being able to identify real from fake pretty well I learned that men used to think of women's ankles as um... a turn on? Yes, thats the word.
So. What you like about a woman's body is therefor related to how society is at that current time. But then again... If I wasn't turned on by any feature of the opposite sex, what would be the point of being straight?
It seems that a turn on is based on association. So if I associate my carpet floor with sex, that might turn me on too... Reality sucks...
SO, as for the question of fake breasts...
Is it superficial to have fake breasts? I could say that. I could also say that it is superficial to wear makeup. But then couldn't I just say that the whole body, every piece of it, is superficial? Then what?
In conclusion. Beauty is not in the eye of the beholder. Because I believe true beauty is a result of good health. Makeup mimmicks good health.
As for real vrs. fake breasts... I would have to get with at least 2 women, one with real and one with fake to come to a conclusion. And I am not sure if that will happen. Though I think the major question is not, "Do I like fake breasts or real?" The question is, do women prefer the feeling of them? Or are they like high heel shoes? They look good on you but hurt and have health implications.
Well, after doing some research I took this test and got a 17 out of 20. Then I took it again and got 19 out of 20. Technically my research is much different than looking at pornography, seeing that... who in there right mind looks at porn and goes "hmm... thats interesting."???
Ok. Me. But not all the time.
Well if anyone is interested, here is the test. I guess it qualifies as explicit content, so be warned. But then again, its just breasts... and silicon.
http://www.starcarlton.com/zips/Silicon.htm
Its been argued that since the breasts serve no reproductive function, they are not supposed to be a NATURAL enticer for sexual arousement. But I though I read somewhere that women can have an orgasm through stimulation of the breasts.
List of things that turns John (me) on:
Physiological
(In order from top to bottom)
Long hair. (Especially wet.)
Breasts. A handful is substaintial. So about C. Though smaller is okay on smaller people because of their proportion to the rest of the body.
Stomach. Firm and flat is nice. Though for the most part, I think it is very rare to find someone with C or above and still having that kind of stomach. Just because breast size seems to be related to body fat content.
Legs. Long legs are nice. But I dont have a foot fetish.
Appearance, but not Physiological.
The following applies only to white people: Tan skin or pale skin. One or the other. Though I don't like "SO tan that I look like I changed my race."
Eye color: Don't really care. I dont make much eye contact anyways. Though I do think black is really cool because then the iris matches with the pupil.
Psychological
Not a bitch.
Talks with you when something goes wrong rather than yell and scream.
Understanding of other people's positions. Not just totally self centered. Empathetic.
Intelligent.
Artistic.
Athletic. (Preferably a gymnast.)
Weird. I dont care for people who act or think like the majority.
Fun loving and childish at times. No matter how old I am, I will always act like a child when it comes to enjoying myself.
In the end, I guess the content of one's character is most important to me. Seeing that eventually, we will be old and unattractive... Then again... That is like saying we will all be cripil before we die. But... not in my family.
But, I mean. Good looks leads to physical attraction. So if I am not considering someones "Looks" then I am not considering physical attraction. ANd therefor I am only considering that individual in terms of friendship. OR I am BI-SEXUAL. BUt not really bisexual... Because though a person could perfer either sex for a lasting relationship, it would not involve sex.
So I dont think I would consider myself bisexual. But then again, maybe everyone is bisexual. Because it is all about SEXUAL preference. So, I perfer girls over guys. Just like I perfer food over poison. Bla... I think too much.
A true optimist knows the truth about life, but still is happy. In my oppinion. Because the more you learn, the more the magic of life slips away. Its kind of like, "Sure santa isn't real, but you don't see me crying." But on a more developed level.
"Merry meet and merry part." I think thats a good way of living. Even when it applies to the newly dead and the divorced.
Sure. Maybe I am giving away a little too much information. But I perfer people who can accept my thoughts. Therefor I don't make friends with preechers.
Oh. And during my art trip to traverse city, I found out that David Tackett died. He got hit by some type of motor vehicle. He used to live on the corner on my block. His father was a preecher and his family hated me.
The thing I wonder about myself is, why don't I have emotion when people die? My mom was talking about my family, her family. And said that no one cried at our grandmother's funeral. She said that that was sick, wrong, messed up etc. But then again... From a christian perspective, they went to a better place. SO you should be happy. And if you are not, you are just being selfish because you want that person but you cant have them. From my perspective, a person who died 100 years ago gets just as much emotion from me as a person who died last night. Without the ego, all deaths are just as meaningfull or meaningless. Why is it more important that a friend dies than someone you don't know?
I dont think of myself as a psychopath though. I don't like to see people suffer. I don't like to see blood. I don' like to hurt others physically or emotionally.
I guess maybe... Lets say I know Mr. Joe. I would be sad if my friend Mr.Joe moved away. I would be EQUALLY sad if Mr. Joe moved away far away. (But still living.)
I guess there is no way for me to know how I will feel about someone's death until it occurs.
But as for everything I say, I only say it if I mean it. ANd therefor it carries a lot of meaning. I don't mis-use or overuse the word "LOVE" and the same will go for "I'll miss you if you die."
Plus, words are just words. Maybe my words are more creditable. But if people dont know that, It doesn't mean anything.
It looks like this is turning into a rant. But think of this rant as this.... This is what is happening in my head most of the time. This is my inner diologue.
I remember one time Amanda questioned me as to why I read my books. My books being things like "The science of breath.", "Buckland's book of spirit communication.", "Your psychic powers and how to develope them." etc..
She said something like, "You just want to be special, and you think that with this you can end up being different from everyone else. But it wont work and in the end your just like everyone else."
There is something about that that makes me smile and almost laugh. I dont understand, because it seems like something that should piss me off. Or at least make me question myself. But then again, I dont think of this stuff as something special. I think psychic ability is inherent in everyone. It is not supernatural. It does not make you special, it makes you normal. And most people are not normal...
Its the same reasoning that makes me say, "The majority should not be used as the standard for sanity since the majority is not sane." Therefor, the majority of people have not realized their full psychic potential, if any at all.
Think about it like this, if I were knocked into a coma and woke up. My muscles would be so weak I could not use them. Psychic powers, having been neglected like this from birth, are similar to this. Its not really psychic training, it is psychic rehabilitation.... But not even that. Its like being born and nocked into acoma. You need to strengthen your muscles. (Rehabilitation.) and then learn to walk. (Train.) All the trouble that could have been saved if parents would just ask their 2 year old child, "What am I thinking now?"
Its almost 6am.... I've stayed up all night. I did this last night... Went to bed at 8:00 am and got up at 6:00 pm.... I cant do that today... I need to do my report and such. But I couldn't go to sleep, I wasn't tired...