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OMFG...I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!!!!
I just had a really bad day and then I came home from an Order of the Arrow lodge meeting at Camp Belzer in Indianapolis and found out that Bonny was at Loras...cool, that is alright I thought. But then I called her and it was just a lot of blank silence that really made me mad, you know it just pissed me off to no good end...made it seem like she had a lot of better things to do than to talk to me...like a makeover. I just really needed someone today and she was much to "busy" to talk to me. god, why do I feel like such an ass? Why am I making her feel bad when it is all my fault...why am I punishing her? I am just so fucking mad I could explode right now! I want to see Bonny, and at the same time I don't because I know that if I do I will probably just be super pissed off at her right now and I don't want to be...It just pisses me off that a makeover takes precidence over me...this is honestly the first time that I have ever been mad at her and I don't like that way it makes me feel inside...it makes me feel depressed...I know I am just being selfish and that she never spends any time with her sisters and family anymore and that I am tottally wrong about this probably, but in the end of all things I am still uber pissed off right now....so depressed...so mad...so wrong...
I just had a really bad day and then I came home from an Order of the Arrow lodge meeting at Camp Belzer in Indianapolis and found out that Bonny was at Loras...cool, that is alright I thought. But then I called her and it was just a lot of blank silence that really made me mad, you know it just pissed me off to no good end...made it seem like she had a lot of better things to do than to talk to me...like a makeover. I just really needed someone today and she was much to "busy" to talk to me. god, why do I feel like such an ass? Why am I making her feel bad when it is all my fault...why am I punishing her? I am just so fucking mad I could explode right now! I want to see Bonny, and at the same time I don't because I know that if I do I will probably just be super pissed off at her right now and I don't want to be...It just pisses me off that a makeover takes precidence over me...this is honestly the first time that I have ever been mad at her and I don't like that way it makes me feel inside...it makes me feel depressed...I know I am just being selfish and that she never spends any time with her sisters and family anymore and that I am tottally wrong about this probably, but in the end of all things I am still uber pissed off right now....so depressed...so mad...so wrong...