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Well yesturday i didnt want to work cause i hate my job. It use to be ok but now that meagon and i fight alot i hate it. I only went there to be with her and since im not with her and we fight cause i annoy her i dont like it. I wish everything was ok. I went home and talked to donna awhile and then i talked to this girl amy. I only did it cause i was bored and i wanted to make sure everything was straight about somethings. I got online and played some games and i really wanted to go to the mall to get a new hoodie. I always wanna go with meagon but she never wants to take me anywhere anymore. Amy said that she wanted to go and asked me if i would go with her. I asked her if i could bring donna and she said yes but donna had some friends over and didnt want to leave. So i went to first meirt and met her. I dont know why we didnt met at the mall but who knows. We got to jcpennys and checked how much is left on her creidt card and then she was on a shopping spree. That girl is to much. I wasnt really there because i wanna hook with her. I went because i was looking for a friend. Im not attracted to her. Im attracted to meagon. She is beautiful and sexy and nothing compares to her. I really wouldnt wanna get involved in that arragenment. I dont want kids right now and if i do i want them with meagon. I wanna raise children with her and no one else. I told meagon about amy because i didnt wanna hide it. Its nothing and there is no reason to hide it. I dont want her and i love meagon to much for that. I told her before if i cant have her i dont want anyone else. Last night i tryed to hold her and she told me to leave her alone. She told me that she didnt wanna be my baby or anything like that. I dont know what to do anymore. I dont know how to act. I dont know what she wants me to do. I love her and i want to wait for her and see if i could have another chance. Meagon is my world. It hurts me alittle bit when i want a hug from her and she tells me no. It is so hard for me to stay away from her. I wish i didnt piss her off as much as i do. I love her. Well im alittle tired so im going to end this now.
Jodi
Jodi