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I dont want to move out i just want everything to be ok. I just feel like she dont want me here and that she would have more fun if it was just her. She tells me that i have changed but it was her that has. I never thought she would treat me like this. I dont know. I just want to know how she feels about me and if she wants me here. Arg. =/ God i love her. Im not going to talk to anyone anymore or try to talk to people. IM just going to keep to myself and put up a wall. That why i cant get in trouble. I feel so alone and useless. I feel like im just in the way of everything. I use to feel like she needed me. Now i feel like she could do better without me. She told me the first half of the whitney houston song i will always love you is to me. She is all i have ever dreamed of and shes not in my way. She is everything i need. She is the only one that makes me happy. No one else can make me happy like she does. When she was with me she wasnt just my gf. She was my life my love and my heart. I could do anything with her by my side. Now im so scared im scared of everything. She gave me strenght. Strenght no one else in this world could give me. Will told me the other night that he wanted to go to the mall again with meagon and i, if we ever got back together because he had fun with us. I dont know what to do anymore. Maybe this time im not going to get her back. Maybe i should do like her mom wants me to and just let her go. I dont want to but iono maybe she wants me to. I dont want to make her mad. Arg. I love her. Ok im done i think for today.
Jodi
Jodi