if you could be "anything you want to be what would it be..." "just happy"

[jmcsloth]

a year ago today mr steuterman died from hanging himself.. it shocked me.. i didnt kno him at all.. but he did detention on thursdays in 9th grade and i was always there.. just the image i got from him.. that was the last thing i thought hed do.. i rember i wasnt sad.. i barely knew him. i remember drama.. horrible.. horrible.. we all came closer too.. our show was exactly that.. our show.. and we had it.. now as i think back.. i think just knowing who he was.. and that he did it has helped me.. it showed me the pain of the aftermath.. it showed me what would happen if i ever succeded.. i'm kind of grateful in a way.. sumtimes i think he saved me in june.. maybe he was looking out for me.. maybe sum 1 thoughti didnt udnerstand enough... maybe.. this is all planned sum where.. idk..

this helped... now i kno y people are always flipping out into there journal

gotta go do shit loads for ms smith.. peace