Oct 02, 2005 01:37
oh my fucking god, im exhausted. I worked 10 hours last night and exactly 11.57 hours today. Today really kicked my ass. Last night i was feeling it, i was in my groove, on my game.. i think i spent all my energy last night, so tonight i was definitely not on my game. It didnt go too bad though. We got through it. My voice is shot from yelling out tickets/orders to the cooks all night, having to yell over a kitchen swarming with 7 cooks, plenty of wait staff, the constant clank, steam and spray of the dish machine, the sizzling of 65 saute pans, the slamming of those saute pans, the cooks calling each other maricones and putos.. Yeah baby! its actually all those sounds and craziness that make my job so appealing. The testosterone, the sweating, the heat, the pressure to get food out fast, the pressure of knowing we have 250 customers in the front of the restaurant with forks in hand waiting for their food, the cursing, the constant taunting amongst the cooks.. All that shit! i fucking love it. most of the time at least. Sometimes it can get exhausting. I got off around 11:45 and went straight to the late night meeting to make the last 5 minutes of the meeting. Work and meetings are like night and day, two different worlds.
My body was so sore when i woke up this morning, and i can only imagine how sore it will be tomorrow when i wake up. Thank god i dont work tomorrow, i ussualy do but i have off the first sunday of every month to represent my homegroup and the ASC (Area service committee) meeting. YaY! 2-3 hours of 50 addicts in a room arguing over votes and policies, etc. I cant wait (yeah right) I do get alot out of it though.. and so does NA as a whole. Tomorrow i am turning in the phone line clip board to P.I. I've been answering all the messages on our areas NA phoneline for the last month. Cant wait to turn that job over to someone else. Its been an experience but i think i'll give someone else the opportunity for some service work.
Anyways, tonight is one of those nights i wish i had a wife. Although i realize that just like Narcotics Anonymous in that is a giving AND recieving kinda thing,, tonight is one of those nights i want to recieve. I just wish i could come home to a wife that would just pamper me,, rub my feet and scratch my back, amongst other things ;) I am gonna sleep like a baby tonight. Im outta here man.. night.
Random recovery statement of the day:
"How would we have known that our lives had become unmanageable if we had'nt been in pain? Just like physical pain, emotional pain lets us know when to stop doing something that hurts"... "Emotional pain provides a basis for comparison when we are joyful. We could'nt appreciate joy without knowing pain."
~Just for Today book of Narcotics Anonymous p.287