Up to Early
Well I had to get up early to call Baker College But I guess I'm up before them because there not answering there phones.Oh well. LOL. Well I'm updating because there has been so much going on in my life right now and I want all my friends to know. I might need some of you guys to be there for me. Well I told James that we needed to see other people because he was waiting for me and I didn't want him to do that. I want him to be happy. Well after I told him I told my parents and I also told everyone that I liked Ray so my mom and James are not happy. I fight with my mom alot. I guess we just don't see eye to eye. I really wish that she could be happy for me. Last week I went to the movies with Crystal, Ray, Chelsea, and Jazz we had so much fun. Even though we got kicked out of the movies. I had a blast. After we got kicked out of the movies we went out to hang out in Burger King. Those people were the coolest because they let us play in there play land. After we left Burger King we went to my friends house for a couple of minutes. Then we headed to the park. We had so much fun there to because we were on the marry-go-round and ray would push us then he would jump on and we would all just sit there and talk. It was so much fun. A couple nights later I went out with Ray, Brandon and Adam I had so much fun that night to. We all went to the movies. WE didn't get kicked out. LOL. WE got to see the whole thing. After that we went to the Store. That was the greatest. Adam hooked little kids cloths over his cloths and walked around. It was so funny. We got so many funny looks. It was grand though.We just messed around the whole time that we were in there. I was so happy. I saw how happy I was when I was around Ray and I had liked him a lot so I had decided to tell everyone. Well that didn't go as planned. I'm just happy that I did it. Iknow that James Is hurting alot and I feel bad about that. I feel like a really mean person. I mean there are times when I can't eat because I know that hes hurting while I'm happy. I guess I don't have to worry about that any more though. I think that him and Holly King are gonna start seeing each other. So with that going on I hope mom will let me hang out with Ray more. She not really right now because she thinks that James and I are supposed to be together. I hope she see's how happy I am. So If I ever need anyone to talk to I hope that you guys are there for me I'm going through a lot though. There Is also One other thing that I feel really bad about. Ray thinks that this is his fault but it's not. I wanted to tell my parents because I haven't been this happy in a long time. He could just make me laugh and I felt really comfortable in front of him. I totally acted like myself without feeling nervous. There is just something about him. I love being with him because we always have so much fun. So I feel bad that he thinks that this is his fault. I told them because they needed to know. Well I have to go. I have to take a shower.
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