Few and far between
I should really update this more often as long as I still have it and all.
I don't even remember what my last update was and I'm far too lazy to check it and find out.
The summer work season is winding down (read: over) so I need to find a new job sometime around right now. I know that it should be a lot easier than I think it is but I'm putting in just enough effort to still not have a new job lined up.
School would be doing ok if I wasn't 4 weeks behind on homework. It's not that bad, because I actually understand the material I just need to turn in some proof of that little fact so that I can pass the class.
I've fallen into a rut lately. I have a whole lot of responsibilities around this apartment that I'm just kinda ignoring. I know that they won't just magically go away but I would always rather be doing something more fun. I know that all of that instant gratification is getting me nowhere because I know that if I were to actually put in some small effort that I could have more fun later. I wish that the intellectual part of my brain could communicate with my body for something other than talking and typing because when it comes to being responsible my inner child kicks my inner adult in the shins and runs off to do whatever it damn well pleases. Which inevitably puts both my inner and outer adult in pain. Enough self pity though.
I've started missing my old friends again. (if you're reading this then it's probably you) This seems to happen every so often. (like if I ever happen to read my Friend's Page) I know that if I put in even the slightest effort to contact someone that maybe something would happen but I still haven't. I guess I was wrong about the end of the self pity thing. Which now makes me even more pitiful because I've become the whiny LJer that I vowed never to become when I started using this free ranting service. So who knows? Maybe I'll turn over a new leaf of proactiveness and responsibility and not-laziness! And maybe hell will freeze over. So, if you are reading this and I do know you and you still remember who I am, then don't expect a call or anything (I know myself too well to promise that) but live with the knowledge that I might call some day. Maybe.
An interesting thought just popped into my head. Maybe I'll just spend a weekend tracking down old friends. I have half of their (your) numbers in my cell phone. I have (or can find) e-mail addresses for the rest. If I ever break out of the routine of doing nothing but chores that I should've done a week ago, I might even get around to having some fun with other people.
Well, I think that that's about enough from me. So I leave you with this thought...
... and also this thought...
I don't even remember what my last update was and I'm far too lazy to check it and find out.
The summer work season is winding down (read: over) so I need to find a new job sometime around right now. I know that it should be a lot easier than I think it is but I'm putting in just enough effort to still not have a new job lined up.
School would be doing ok if I wasn't 4 weeks behind on homework. It's not that bad, because I actually understand the material I just need to turn in some proof of that little fact so that I can pass the class.
I've fallen into a rut lately. I have a whole lot of responsibilities around this apartment that I'm just kinda ignoring. I know that they won't just magically go away but I would always rather be doing something more fun. I know that all of that instant gratification is getting me nowhere because I know that if I were to actually put in some small effort that I could have more fun later. I wish that the intellectual part of my brain could communicate with my body for something other than talking and typing because when it comes to being responsible my inner child kicks my inner adult in the shins and runs off to do whatever it damn well pleases. Which inevitably puts both my inner and outer adult in pain. Enough self pity though.
I've started missing my old friends again. (if you're reading this then it's probably you) This seems to happen every so often. (like if I ever happen to read my Friend's Page) I know that if I put in even the slightest effort to contact someone that maybe something would happen but I still haven't. I guess I was wrong about the end of the self pity thing. Which now makes me even more pitiful because I've become the whiny LJer that I vowed never to become when I started using this free ranting service. So who knows? Maybe I'll turn over a new leaf of proactiveness and responsibility and not-laziness! And maybe hell will freeze over. So, if you are reading this and I do know you and you still remember who I am, then don't expect a call or anything (I know myself too well to promise that) but live with the knowledge that I might call some day. Maybe.
An interesting thought just popped into my head. Maybe I'll just spend a weekend tracking down old friends. I have half of their (your) numbers in my cell phone. I have (or can find) e-mail addresses for the rest. If I ever break out of the routine of doing nothing but chores that I should've done a week ago, I might even get around to having some fun with other people.
Well, I think that that's about enough from me. So I leave you with this thought...
... and also this thought...