2003
So I'm a senior.
whoop dee doo
everyone for the past 12 years of my life has put this senior shit on such a high pedistol(spelled wrong I know) that I wouldn't be able to even comprehend how great it would be.
well I have had more fun shitting my pants in elementary school, than I will have in this school year and that's guaranteed.
people forget that when high school is over it's just one big step closer to when your shitty life begins. where you have no one to rely on but yourself and if you're lucky, a loved one.
but never the less you will keep doing essentially what you're doing right now. you'll keep looking for that happiness, that one piece of fire that will keep you lit for awhile. You won't find anything permanent and you'll have to move on from one flame to the next until you die. That's life at it's most basic and stripped away.
This is a journal; a re-telling of what I experienced recently.
this past week I have had school for one day.
The school day lasted aprox. 8 hours and I don't remember anything I learned from those 8 hours.
I went home and indulged myself into myself
and then out popped jeanette
we watched movies and laughed for 6 days and 5 nights.
when I wake up I go back to sleep
I liked having that comforting reassurance that I exist.
but I liked it more when I didnt.
Ingmar Bergman trilogy is good.
Pizza pockets is good
Nausea by Jean paul sartre is good
2 shots of popov vodka is good
sleep is okay
there are my plans for the day
seeya when I accomplish them all
whoop dee doo
everyone for the past 12 years of my life has put this senior shit on such a high pedistol(spelled wrong I know) that I wouldn't be able to even comprehend how great it would be.
well I have had more fun shitting my pants in elementary school, than I will have in this school year and that's guaranteed.
people forget that when high school is over it's just one big step closer to when your shitty life begins. where you have no one to rely on but yourself and if you're lucky, a loved one.
but never the less you will keep doing essentially what you're doing right now. you'll keep looking for that happiness, that one piece of fire that will keep you lit for awhile. You won't find anything permanent and you'll have to move on from one flame to the next until you die. That's life at it's most basic and stripped away.
This is a journal; a re-telling of what I experienced recently.
this past week I have had school for one day.
The school day lasted aprox. 8 hours and I don't remember anything I learned from those 8 hours.
I went home and indulged myself into myself
and then out popped jeanette
we watched movies and laughed for 6 days and 5 nights.
when I wake up I go back to sleep
I liked having that comforting reassurance that I exist.
but I liked it more when I didnt.
Ingmar Bergman trilogy is good.
Pizza pockets is good
Nausea by Jean paul sartre is good
2 shots of popov vodka is good
sleep is okay
there are my plans for the day
seeya when I accomplish them all