In a loss for words...
I wanna share this w/ you guys, its the email that Andrew sent me. He's leaving this morning - Saturday - to go to the beach, and will be coming home Sunday. His parents are stayin down there the whole week though and Andrew has to stay w/ his grandparents...haha. :-D, but anyway, this is what he said..
hey baby. im not shure why im writing u this but i just kinda felt the urge to.u know ima spurr of the moment kind of person. i guess i just wanted to tell you how much u mean to me and how much i care about you. ever since the first day we met, i knew there was somethin there between us. at first when u told jake that u fell in love on that sat i was like "woah, ok". but then it seemed like the next weekend was the same for me. i just realized how much i really liked you. even though it was only a week, i knew that we were a shure fit for each other. every time i see you, i feel like i fall in love with you again. and though i may not know what the true meaning of love is, i know that the feelings i have for you are far beyond any other feelings i have ever had for anyone or anything, ever before. and i want you to know that i would never let anything hurt or ruin our relationship because u mean so much to me. i think that we have something special and are so perfect for each other that i would go crazy if something were to come between us.im sorry im leavin again this weekend but hopefully it will be the last one that im gone for, for a while so we will get to be togeather on the weekends from now on. nothing drives me crazy more than thinking of you and being able to look into your eyes, which i could do all night long, as if you were right there lookin back at me. i cant wait to get back to decatur so i can see you and hold you in my arms again. i miss you everytime im away from you evn if its only a matter of hours. I guess thats why goodbye's are so hard. well i hope you have fun sat night. ill c-you when you get back. i miss you! love Andrew
Wow....how sweet is that honestly? I was like...wow. haha. makes me happy.
Tonight was pretty boring, but thigns heated up at the end...one of my 'friends' i guess REALLY really mad me upset, im not gonna say way b/c i relaly dont feel liek getting into that right now, but he did...and it was me, andrew, this person, and katy mac... And after 'this person' said and did some things i was very upset and tonight was Andrews last night here for a little while b/c hes going to the beach tomorrow, so i kinda wanted it to be a good night for him but 'this person' screwed that up so i was in complete silence, the whole car was b/c no one wanted to tlak to him. So he kept appologizing over and over and i turned on the music and said look..just shut up! So Andrew had to be home at 10, and I really didnt need to go home at the time b/c i was crying and .. it just wasn't the time for me to go home. So 'this person' is like look andrew just let us out here * which was on the side of a road may i add * And Andrew looked at me and was like...where do u want me to take you im not leavin you here. And i said where else am i gonna go? You have to be home in 15 minutes, and it takes him 15 minutes to get home b/c he liveson the other side of town, and I cant go home, and i cant go somewhere and stand there by myself... And that just made me wanna cry even more b/c this was our last night for a few days and UGH just pissed me off b/c i wanted it to be somewhat special and i was standing on the side of the road w/ my friends...and Andrew wasn't too happy about it either, he was pissed as a matter of fact and thought i was pissed at him. But anyway, so Andrew headed home and a friend of mine David Moore came and got me, this person, and katy mac. KMT had to be home so we took her to her house and then we were headed to a party, and it was just me david and 'this person' and i was lke...no....david, can u please take me home? and 'this person' says yeah, shes mad at Andrew...and i said WTF! HELL NO IM NOT MAD AT ANDREW! IM FUCKING MAD AT YOU!!!!!!!! Yeah....nice. So i got home...my dad was standing outside i was crying and he was like Jude, whats wrong?? and i said dont worry about it, im fine..then walk inside and my moms like Judeth!? whats wrong sweetie!? an di said GAH NOTHING JUST PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE, so then i go into the kitchen to get some food and my mom comes and gives me a hug and i just start ballin'. I felt like i was a little kid again, cryin in my moms arms haha. But then i talked to Andrew and 'that person' and everythings fine now...i'm still frustrated, but were friends and its fine and me and andrew are fine...one thing that did kinda...suprise me i guess was when i looked at a VERY very good friends live journal..and come to find out that he thinks he may be in love w/ me..which puts me in an akward position. I mean i LOVE this person to death, i would do anything for him,even kill myself, honestly. I dont even think he knows how much he means to me..hes just one of those people where no matter whats goin on and when the last time yall talked was, hes always there...and always willing to listen and try to help. But a relationship is one thing i couldn't do right now..eSPECIALLY w/ me and Andrew gettin to a somewhat serious stage. But gah, after readin his journal I almost feel like its a go out..or dont talk to me kinda thing which would KILL me...like i dunno what to do, i just wanna talk to him but its too late to call and hes not online. I guess ill just sleep on it, i mean theres no WAY im breaking up w/ Andrew...no way. I just cant lose my best friend either....so if your reading this, and u know who u are...call me or send me an email. I'm goin to bed though, goodnight guys! Sweet dreams
hey baby. im not shure why im writing u this but i just kinda felt the urge to.u know ima spurr of the moment kind of person. i guess i just wanted to tell you how much u mean to me and how much i care about you. ever since the first day we met, i knew there was somethin there between us. at first when u told jake that u fell in love on that sat i was like "woah, ok". but then it seemed like the next weekend was the same for me. i just realized how much i really liked you. even though it was only a week, i knew that we were a shure fit for each other. every time i see you, i feel like i fall in love with you again. and though i may not know what the true meaning of love is, i know that the feelings i have for you are far beyond any other feelings i have ever had for anyone or anything, ever before. and i want you to know that i would never let anything hurt or ruin our relationship because u mean so much to me. i think that we have something special and are so perfect for each other that i would go crazy if something were to come between us.im sorry im leavin again this weekend but hopefully it will be the last one that im gone for, for a while so we will get to be togeather on the weekends from now on. nothing drives me crazy more than thinking of you and being able to look into your eyes, which i could do all night long, as if you were right there lookin back at me. i cant wait to get back to decatur so i can see you and hold you in my arms again. i miss you everytime im away from you evn if its only a matter of hours. I guess thats why goodbye's are so hard. well i hope you have fun sat night. ill c-you when you get back. i miss you! love Andrew
Wow....how sweet is that honestly? I was like...wow. haha. makes me happy.
Tonight was pretty boring, but thigns heated up at the end...one of my 'friends' i guess REALLY really mad me upset, im not gonna say way b/c i relaly dont feel liek getting into that right now, but he did...and it was me, andrew, this person, and katy mac... And after 'this person' said and did some things i was very upset and tonight was Andrews last night here for a little while b/c hes going to the beach tomorrow, so i kinda wanted it to be a good night for him but 'this person' screwed that up so i was in complete silence, the whole car was b/c no one wanted to tlak to him. So he kept appologizing over and over and i turned on the music and said look..just shut up! So Andrew had to be home at 10, and I really didnt need to go home at the time b/c i was crying and .. it just wasn't the time for me to go home. So 'this person' is like look andrew just let us out here * which was on the side of a road may i add * And Andrew looked at me and was like...where do u want me to take you im not leavin you here. And i said where else am i gonna go? You have to be home in 15 minutes, and it takes him 15 minutes to get home b/c he liveson the other side of town, and I cant go home, and i cant go somewhere and stand there by myself... And that just made me wanna cry even more b/c this was our last night for a few days and UGH just pissed me off b/c i wanted it to be somewhat special and i was standing on the side of the road w/ my friends...and Andrew wasn't too happy about it either, he was pissed as a matter of fact and thought i was pissed at him. But anyway, so Andrew headed home and a friend of mine David Moore came and got me, this person, and katy mac. KMT had to be home so we took her to her house and then we were headed to a party, and it was just me david and 'this person' and i was lke...no....david, can u please take me home? and 'this person' says yeah, shes mad at Andrew...and i said WTF! HELL NO IM NOT MAD AT ANDREW! IM FUCKING MAD AT YOU!!!!!!!! Yeah....nice. So i got home...my dad was standing outside i was crying and he was like Jude, whats wrong?? and i said dont worry about it, im fine..then walk inside and my moms like Judeth!? whats wrong sweetie!? an di said GAH NOTHING JUST PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE, so then i go into the kitchen to get some food and my mom comes and gives me a hug and i just start ballin'. I felt like i was a little kid again, cryin in my moms arms haha. But then i talked to Andrew and 'that person' and everythings fine now...i'm still frustrated, but were friends and its fine and me and andrew are fine...one thing that did kinda...suprise me i guess was when i looked at a VERY very good friends live journal..and come to find out that he thinks he may be in love w/ me..which puts me in an akward position. I mean i LOVE this person to death, i would do anything for him,even kill myself, honestly. I dont even think he knows how much he means to me..hes just one of those people where no matter whats goin on and when the last time yall talked was, hes always there...and always willing to listen and try to help. But a relationship is one thing i couldn't do right now..eSPECIALLY w/ me and Andrew gettin to a somewhat serious stage. But gah, after readin his journal I almost feel like its a go out..or dont talk to me kinda thing which would KILL me...like i dunno what to do, i just wanna talk to him but its too late to call and hes not online. I guess ill just sleep on it, i mean theres no WAY im breaking up w/ Andrew...no way. I just cant lose my best friend either....so if your reading this, and u know who u are...call me or send me an email. I'm goin to bed though, goodnight guys! Sweet dreams