***Shit on the RAINBOW***
Lately i've noticed that my life seems to be leading no where. Everywhere i look, i see people who know what they want to do with their lives, and are actually accomplishing it. I see people who are confident that they can make it, and are happy with right where there are. Then i look in the mirror and i realize that the person that i'm looking at, is totally lost, knows no direction, is scared shitless, and will most likely fail at life.
I know that i want to succeed in whatever i do....the thing is that i don't know what i'll do, and i dont' really think that i will succeed at it. I feel as though i'm going to fail at life. I want to be a chiropractor, and i know that that's a hard thing to do, and i know that most people are probably right in saying that i wont make it.
Everyday i go to work, and everyday i turn more into a lifer! ugh...i don't want that to be true! I don't want to work at festival my entire life! yes it's a good job while in school...but not for life!...but i can see that happening...and it scares me half to death!
I wish i knew if i'd actually succeed in the end, i wish i knew if i was gonna die happy, i wish i knew if i was going to ammount to something...but i don't know that...and it's driving me insane! I want to make it in life...i'm trying so hard to just figure out where i belong and get there...that i hope life doesn't just end up passing me by while i'm workin' on it!
Everyone is going to go off to college far away and going to do great things, after june of next year...and i'm left saying...yup...it's off to BESSEMER FOR ME!!! I'M FUCKIN' COOL!!!...i'm going to middle of no where to fail a nursing program, to not get into med school, to not get into chiropractic school, to realize...fuck...i shoulda been a cosomotologist...or maybe...i was just meant to be a lifer!!!
i'm always left with those questions of...HOW IN THE WORLD DO PEOPLE JUST KNOW WHAT TO DO W/ THEIR LIVES???HOW DO THEY KNOW THAT THAT'S THE RIGHT THING FOR THEM???HOW'D THEY KNOW THAT THEY'D BE HAPPY???HOW'D THEY KNOW THAT THEY WOULD SUCCEED???....never any answers...
...sometimes i feel as though my life is the shit on someone else's rainbow...it's worthless, and just ruins everything for other people!!! yes...that is my life at moments...and for once...i'd like to not be shit...and just be a FRESH...CLEAN...BEAUTIFUL...BRIGHT...rainbow!
Love, Lynn
I know that i want to succeed in whatever i do....the thing is that i don't know what i'll do, and i dont' really think that i will succeed at it. I feel as though i'm going to fail at life. I want to be a chiropractor, and i know that that's a hard thing to do, and i know that most people are probably right in saying that i wont make it.
Everyday i go to work, and everyday i turn more into a lifer! ugh...i don't want that to be true! I don't want to work at festival my entire life! yes it's a good job while in school...but not for life!...but i can see that happening...and it scares me half to death!
I wish i knew if i'd actually succeed in the end, i wish i knew if i was gonna die happy, i wish i knew if i was going to ammount to something...but i don't know that...and it's driving me insane! I want to make it in life...i'm trying so hard to just figure out where i belong and get there...that i hope life doesn't just end up passing me by while i'm workin' on it!
Everyone is going to go off to college far away and going to do great things, after june of next year...and i'm left saying...yup...it's off to BESSEMER FOR ME!!! I'M FUCKIN' COOL!!!...i'm going to middle of no where to fail a nursing program, to not get into med school, to not get into chiropractic school, to realize...fuck...i shoulda been a cosomotologist...or maybe...i was just meant to be a lifer!!!
i'm always left with those questions of...HOW IN THE WORLD DO PEOPLE JUST KNOW WHAT TO DO W/ THEIR LIVES???HOW DO THEY KNOW THAT THAT'S THE RIGHT THING FOR THEM???HOW'D THEY KNOW THAT THEY'D BE HAPPY???HOW'D THEY KNOW THAT THEY WOULD SUCCEED???....never any answers...
...sometimes i feel as though my life is the shit on someone else's rainbow...it's worthless, and just ruins everything for other people!!! yes...that is my life at moments...and for once...i'd like to not be shit...and just be a FRESH...CLEAN...BEAUTIFUL...BRIGHT...rainbow!
Love, Lynn