another one of those grand days! haha!
hmmm today SUCKS BIG BALLS!!!!!!
where to start...
1.) my daddy left back for iraq this morning! he woke me up to say goodbye, and when i went to get out of bed to go to the airport...he told me to just stay home...that i wasn't allowed to go. which made me feel like shit!!! I was half asleep when i said goodbye...i wanted to say good bye and know what was really going on! and i wanted to see him leave! I feel like they always do this to me...tell me that they want me there then the next day they change their minds! It hurts! and i miss him already!....oh well...it was probably a missunderstanding...he probably just wanted to let me sleep more before heading out for school! and maybe he was running late or something. I love him lots though! LOVE YOU DADDY!
2.) I've had the feeling that i'm going to vomit all FRICKIN' DAY!!! I honestly haven't eaten anything but a mint today in fear that ii'll just come right back up!
3.) I hated seeing hermann and casey together! Yes i tried to be happy, and yes i tried not to care...but i'm not happy and i do care!!! I STILL LOVE HIM! and that hurts so flippin' bad! I don't expect people to understand why i love him...i really don't...and i don't even care if they realize that i do love him! So don't be all pissy at me because i love him and he's a jerk...that's not my fault...and getting mad at me for it doesn't make me feel any better, it just hurts worse! I'm sorry... i hope that sometime soon things will be better.
4.) I know that i'm not supposed to feel fat or ugly, but i do. i feel like..i'm just not good enough. hermann doesnt' even want me. and the other guy that i'm starting to sorta like...deffinately would NEVER like me...i'm not really his type...he likes all these tiny girls...and the only way that im tiny is in my height! otherwise...i'm just your normal girl! yup that's me...NORMAL! which i suppose...there's nothing really wrong with being normal is there?
5.) when i got home from school... i found garbage scattered around the kitchen (which i had to clean up) because someone forgot to close the laundry room door , and the dog got into it
Till later...
~Lynn~
where to start...
1.) my daddy left back for iraq this morning! he woke me up to say goodbye, and when i went to get out of bed to go to the airport...he told me to just stay home...that i wasn't allowed to go. which made me feel like shit!!! I was half asleep when i said goodbye...i wanted to say good bye and know what was really going on! and i wanted to see him leave! I feel like they always do this to me...tell me that they want me there then the next day they change their minds! It hurts! and i miss him already!....oh well...it was probably a missunderstanding...he probably just wanted to let me sleep more before heading out for school! and maybe he was running late or something. I love him lots though! LOVE YOU DADDY!
2.) I've had the feeling that i'm going to vomit all FRICKIN' DAY!!! I honestly haven't eaten anything but a mint today in fear that ii'll just come right back up!
3.) I hated seeing hermann and casey together! Yes i tried to be happy, and yes i tried not to care...but i'm not happy and i do care!!! I STILL LOVE HIM! and that hurts so flippin' bad! I don't expect people to understand why i love him...i really don't...and i don't even care if they realize that i do love him! So don't be all pissy at me because i love him and he's a jerk...that's not my fault...and getting mad at me for it doesn't make me feel any better, it just hurts worse! I'm sorry... i hope that sometime soon things will be better.
4.) I know that i'm not supposed to feel fat or ugly, but i do. i feel like..i'm just not good enough. hermann doesnt' even want me. and the other guy that i'm starting to sorta like...deffinately would NEVER like me...i'm not really his type...he likes all these tiny girls...and the only way that im tiny is in my height! otherwise...i'm just your normal girl! yup that's me...NORMAL! which i suppose...there's nothing really wrong with being normal is there?
5.) when i got home from school... i found garbage scattered around the kitchen (which i had to clean up) because someone forgot to close the laundry room door , and the dog got into it
Till later...
~Lynn~