The organism will do as it damn well pleases.
This past week I was seeing someone who would have been a very positive influence in my life. We spent a fair amount of time together yesterday, and I thought things were going pretty well (better than they usually do with others). This morning she calls to call it off, saying that our lifestyles were too different, that she doesn't want to make me change, and she doesn't want to wait for change to happen. She said I was a nice guy, though.
This is getting old, folks. It's even self-defeating: I hold back my involvement for fear of getting hurt, and they see that as a lifestyle difference and go and hurt me anyway (even though they don't want to). Having held back, I hurt less, but still it annoys me to see my investment in time and trust and all that evaporate so quickly and so often. It also makes me think that seeing someone is not real or normal, as I get punished for doing it. There are still other effects.
I don't do this to learn from it, you know. (Hindsight is 20/20.)
While I was on the phone with her this morning, another friend left voicemail that ended "Hope your day is going well". Don't take this the wrong way, dear, but it was until you called :-) (Totally a coincidence.)
This is getting old, folks. It's even self-defeating: I hold back my involvement for fear of getting hurt, and they see that as a lifestyle difference and go and hurt me anyway (even though they don't want to). Having held back, I hurt less, but still it annoys me to see my investment in time and trust and all that evaporate so quickly and so often. It also makes me think that seeing someone is not real or normal, as I get punished for doing it. There are still other effects.
I don't do this to learn from it, you know. (Hindsight is 20/20.)
While I was on the phone with her this morning, another friend left voicemail that ended "Hope your day is going well". Don't take this the wrong way, dear, but it was until you called :-) (Totally a coincidence.)