hmmm

[jlviolet_luv_u]

I've spent like two days in the house doing absoulutly nothing and all i do is think. and i just thought of something im selfish. i never thought i would be because i think about others then i do myself everyone nows epicially adam and megan, but as you know ive been a little depressed lately cause of haveing no job and no friends right now aka boyfriend so im lonely. and i realise that i need to know everything so i feel better about myself and that people need me just as much as i need people. I hate feeling this way.

People keep secrets from me people i thought were my bestest friends it hurts it hurts when i tell everyone everything i have no secrets even if i do someone always ends up knowing. Im just really really lonely. Tomorrow megan and adam are going out and i was going to go with them and i can't because i have to go to my dads performents im a little dissapointed but at the same time relieved because i never know how im going to feel when im with them. Im very comfussed about my feelings right now. i just really need to get laid (no smart ass comment Adam)

I hate complaining on here because it make me mad when i read dramma queens on no offense to you dramma quees out there.

Well i guess i will go laid down now
sorry to thoughs i might have offeneded.
bye for now