Memories of Us Chapter 4
Title: Memories of Us
Pairing: YamaChii
Author: jlrui
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, angst?
Summary: Chinen had an accident that made him forget about his past. Four years passed and he met a guy named Yamada
Ryosuke, as he got closer to him, Chinen started to regain memories and he always saw a guy that he had a relationship with. A twist then occurred as he found out that the guy he love from his past and the guy he is in love at the present is the same person. Will Chinen be able to help Ryosuke get his memories back? What will Chinen's family going to do if they found out that he is living again with Ryosuke? Will they even have a happy ending in the end?
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A secret that made me confuse.
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It’s already been a month since the storm incident in the villa.
“I’ll be back later,” I said to him awkwardly.
“Okay, I’ll be at Yuto’s place,” Chinen replied to me.
It’s been a month since that day; I really thought that it would be the start. The start that my memories would come back, or even a start to us as something more than what we are now.
After that incident we stop hunting for my memories, I managed to convince him that we don’t need to force my memories to come back. Maybe it will come to me when I needed it the most just like before.
It was also starting to become a burden, I know that when it comes to money we do not have any problems but what makes me a burden was the disappointments and time that Keito, Yuto and especially Yuri had been giving just for me to get it back. So leaving it just the way it is and just let it come to me was a better idea for me.
I won’t be a burden.
I closed the door behind me as Chii kept waving at me goodbye. I really don’t want to leave but I need to do something today.
I look at the small piece of paper that was in my pocket this whole week.
Ryosuke,
Meet me a week from now at Wonder’s café.
Wednesday next week, 9am.
Don’t tell Yuri about this.
We need to talk.
-Umika
I don’t know if Keito had any knowledge about this. Last week, Keito gave me a basket full of fruits. It was out of nowhere, I wasn’t even sick nor was Yuri. Yuri said to me that maybe it was Keito’s sign of being close to me as a friend.
When I opened the basket a small letter fell down and when I opened it I saw Umika’s letter for me. I immediately hide it from Yuri, and now I’m meeting her without his knowledge.
I don’t know why I hide it from him up to now, and I don’t even know why I’m meeting her still but there is a part of me that tells me I really need to hide it from him and that I should meet her.
Maybe it will be a good thing. I would be able to apologize. Apologize for taking away the man he love and also to ask her permission.
Permission if it’s okay to like Yuri. More than just a friend, more than what we are now. Although I’m still not sure of my feelings for him, it’s leading to that so it’s better to ask her first.
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“I’m too early,” I said as I look at my watch. It’s only 8 in the morning and it was stated in the letter that she’ll be here 9 sharp.
I decided to go inside. I ordered an iced coffee, the cashier punched my order and said to wait for it in a minute or two.
After a while, the waiter gave me the iced coffee. She gave me a cute smile and then handed me a small piece of paper.
“Thank you,” I smiled at her. I waited for the waiter to leave then, when I was sure I was alone I read the note that was given to me.
There’s a private room in the café, say that you’re with me they’ll let you in.
Use Yuri’s name just in case they asked who you are.
-Umika
“Excuse me,” I said signalling the waiter that I needed some assistance.
“Yes?”she asked me as she approached me.
“Is there a private room or place at your café?” I ask as politely as I could.
“I’m sorry sir, those are for VIPs only,” she said then.
“My friend’s waiting for me there.” I don’t know if I can call her a friend though what well I need something to say to the waiter. “Her name’s Umika Kawashima.”
“Kawashima-san?” the waiter was shocked then, it’s like she started to be more alert. “I’ll just have to make sure that she is waiting for someone. May I ask your name?”
“Chinen Yuri,” it was awkward telling someone that my name’s Chinen. I smile to the waiter, smiling makes me cover up the lies or even the things I don’t want people knowing about me.
The waiter left me then, he went to asked for me I think if I was telling the truth or not. A few moments later, the waiter came back with a smile again.
“I’m sorry for the wait sir,” she said to me. “Kawashima-san’s waiting for you.”
“Thank you,” I then followed the waitress and there she showed me a private door where Kawashima-san is waiting for me.
I took a deep breath, hold the doorknob and twist it to open.
When I entered the private room, Umika was there.
“I’m glad you came,” Umika said to me then. She gave me a smile, a bitter smile.
“I’m surprise I came here as well,” I replied to her and I went and sit at an empty chair. “What is it that we need to talk about?”
All of a sudden when I asked that question, it feels like the air became different; heavier, and more intense to the two of us.
“About that,” Umika was now serious, even her forced smile wasn’t there. “I have to warn you.”
“Warn me about what?” I asked. I’m starting to get nervous that I even imagined what she will say next.
“About Yuri’s family,” Umika said as she looked at me with serious eyes. “You don’t know what they are capable of.”
“Yuri said he’ll take care of it and--” Umika cut what I was saying then.
“They are planning something again to take Yuri away from you,” I frozed when Umika said those words. “They’re planning to use me to take him away from you.”
I prayed in my heart that she won’t take Yuri away from me. Please anything but taking Yuri away from me.
“You won’t take him away from me right?” I asked concern can be shown into my eyes.
“Do you think I would meet you here if I plan to take him away from you?” Umika asked me. Still I can see pain into her eyes but her eyes tells only the truth. “As long as you two are together, in love, and happy I know there isn’t anything they can do.”
“I-Umm,” I can’t answer her clearly as she said together and happy. It is true that we are happy, Yuri loves me, but still we aren’t together and the worst part is that I know that I love him but there is a part of me that tells me not to say it to Yuri.
“You are happy right?” Umika confirmed again as she heard I was a bit hesitant.
“Yes, we are happy.” That wasn’t a lie but not entirely the truth as well.
“Good,” she said relieved of my answer.
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After some moments the waitress entered the private room and gave us the food that Umika ordered. We silently ate after it.
“I have a small question,” it’s been bugging me since she opened up about being use by Yuri’s family.
“What is it?” Umika said giving me permission to continue to ask.
“You said Yuri’s family will use you,” I stop for a moment, analyzing her expression of confusion. “How would they do that?”
“Ryosuke, I thought you remember everything now?” Umika furrowed her eyebrows then. “Keito said you remembered about Yuri being scared of lightning.”
“It’s not like I entirely remember it, I just felt it in my gut at that time,” I started to play with my knife then as I told Umika the truth. “To tell you the truth, I didn’t regain even a little of my memories. It’s still all blank.”
“You still have amnesia,” Umika said and close her eyes as if she can’t hide her disappointment anymore.
“I’m sorry,” I can’t look at her now knowing I disappointed her too.
“You don’t get it Ryosuke,” Umika then suddenly said. I look at her and she had started to panic. “Your memories and my memories are the ones they will use to sabotage the two of you again!”
“What do you mean?” I put down the knife I was using and take my full attention to what Umika was saying. “What do you mean our memories?”
“Ryosuke, Yuri wasn’t my first boyfriend,” Umika stop there. I breathe deeply trying to wait for her to continue. “My first boyfriend was you.”
“Eh?” was all I can reply to what she said. It is true though that I like girls today since I do not have memories of my past but still past or present I know for sure that I love Yuri. “How? Did Yuri?”
“No, he doesn’t know anything about that,” Umika said. She took a deep breath and told me our little story. “You and Yuri were childhood friends. And so was me and Yuri, but all those times we never get the chance to be introduced. I was in love with Yuri and at that time you didn’t know you were in love with him too. I heard that Yuri had a crush on you and I just can’t take that, I wanted him to be mine so I planned something. I managed to get information about you, to where you live, to what girls you like etc.”
“You’re telling me that because you wanted Yuri to yourself, you made me your boyfriend?” I asked her, a bit disgusted on how far she will go to get the thing she wants.
“Yes and I am sorry for that. I managed to be your girlfriend then, Yuri didn’t know that I was your girlfriend all he knows is that you are already dating someone. When he started to avoid you, I knew I was successful, so I broke up with you. You were heartbroken and without Yuri and me by your side you finally realized your feelings for him,” Umika then cut the story there.
“Tell me, when we were together what did we do?” It bothers me now, and she said it might be use to separate Yuri and I so I need to know everything.
“We did what normal couples do,” Umika said but there was something behind what she said. “We did everything.”
“That’s not true,” I denied as I stood up. Umika stood as well and started to approach me.
“That’s the truth Ryosuke,” Umika was now very close to me. We were only inches apart but I didn’t know why my body won’t move away. “At some moment when you didn’t realize your feelings for him yet, you fell in love with me.”
Umika then look at me in the eyes, her eyes were so beautiful, perfectly round brown eyes. Without my consent my arm moved its way to her face making her no choice but to look at me at a small distance.
It was a moment where I feel like I had forgotten everything, I feel like there was only us in the world. Umika, and I. I leaned closer as I hear her breathing more clearly and then I pressed my lips on to hers.
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After a moment or two, I finally got into my senses and pulled away from our kiss, I was shocked and it showed in my face. I wipe my lips as there was some of her lip gloss that was still in mine.
“It’s not true; Yuri was the only one that I love!” I said still in denial.
“You can say that was a lie but your body knows the truth,” Umika said and then she took her bag and started to leave. “I’m telling you right now, I maybe in your side but I did mistakes before and when Yuri find out about those I would only say the truth. Tell me if you want to know more about us, you have to know so that you will know how to explain it to Yuri.”
After that without hearing my reply she left me there, all alone and confused about my feelings.
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It was already nightfall when I went home. I opened the front door as silent as I could, making sure that Yuri wouldn’t hear me coming in. I just can’t face him right now, not like this; I’m in a total mess right now.
“Welcome back Ryosuke,” Yuri said to me as he was still in the dining room.
“I-I’m back,” I said unnaturally. “Why are you still up?”
“I was waiting for you. I was worried,” Yuri said to me and I can see a sudden flush of redness flow through his cheeks.
My heart started to beat faster when I saw that, I like it I guess seeing him like that. But then I remember what happen earlier.
“You can say that was a lie but your body knows the truth,” it keeps repeating in my head. I know Umika’s right but what does that mean then?
Was I really in love with Yuri, was Umika telling the truth that when she left me I realized that I love Yuri? Or did I only used Yuri to hurt Umika back?
“Ryosuke?” when I got back to my senses, I realized Yuri was so closed to me looking very worried. “You look pale.”
“I’m just a little bit exhausted,” exhausted of thinking too much I guess.
Right then Yuri put his hand in my face making sure that I didn’t have a fever or something. My heart beats faster then. I held the hand that was still in my cheeks. I look at him more gently then, as I started to leaned closer to him.
When I leaned for a kiss everything just went from gentle to wild. It was as if our bodies are the one moving and not us, as I kissed him more passionately that I could ever do to anyone.
My body’s reacting to him, yes that’s right I’m his and his mine.
I won’t let her confuse me, the one I love is Yuri, not her.
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Author's note: It's been a while and I'm sorry for that, I still have my examinations this week and I will be busy the next weeks looking for an internship to a company... But I promise I will update it as much as I can.
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