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today was my birthday. dont say happy birthday now. it would be a waste of space.
but i had a wonderful day out with my mom. it was awesome. and i come home to my sleeping boyfriend (whom i knew was at my house, and sleeping.) and we were supposed to spend the evening together. my mom even left, to give us roughly 3 hours of alone time. and i remind you. today is my BIRTHDAY. he knows it is my birthday, i didnt ASK for ANYTHING for my birthday. and so when i got home, i asked him if he would play hookie with me for the day, my mom had already said it was ok, and i didnt have theater, so i figured it was a shoe in. he had been bugging me to hang out for the past 2 weeks but i hadnt been able to, so i figured. hey, perfect opportunity.
WRONG. wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong.
he decided school was more important. that missing a monday scedual would get him behind in his classes. this is the boy who has THREE study halls. and can make up his work in a matter of 2 hours, max for missing a monday. and so in -lets-pretend-nothing-is-wrong-so-i-dont-make-him-feel-bad-mode- i gave him a feeble hug and kiss goodbye, and because i couldnt bare to bring him home and drive back without crashing my car by means silence and then from tears clouding my vison because i was so upset that he choose SCHOOL over ME.
so i let him take my car home. as we hugged he said 'wow, i feel like an assholeand the moment he was out the door. i was bawling. and now, i still thinking somewhat thought 'maybe he might come to say sorry and goodbye' but he didnt. and now he is confused.
but i had a wonderful day out with my mom. it was awesome. and i come home to my sleeping boyfriend (whom i knew was at my house, and sleeping.) and we were supposed to spend the evening together. my mom even left, to give us roughly 3 hours of alone time. and i remind you. today is my BIRTHDAY. he knows it is my birthday, i didnt ASK for ANYTHING for my birthday. and so when i got home, i asked him if he would play hookie with me for the day, my mom had already said it was ok, and i didnt have theater, so i figured it was a shoe in. he had been bugging me to hang out for the past 2 weeks but i hadnt been able to, so i figured. hey, perfect opportunity.
WRONG. wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong.
he decided school was more important. that missing a monday scedual would get him behind in his classes. this is the boy who has THREE study halls. and can make up his work in a matter of 2 hours, max for missing a monday. and so in -lets-pretend-nothing-is-wrong-so-i-dont-make-him-feel-bad-mode- i gave him a feeble hug and kiss goodbye, and because i couldnt bare to bring him home and drive back without crashing my car by means silence and then from tears clouding my vison because i was so upset that he choose SCHOOL over ME.
so i let him take my car home. as we hugged he said 'wow, i feel like an assholeand the moment he was out the door. i was bawling. and now, i still thinking somewhat thought 'maybe he might come to say sorry and goodbye' but he didnt. and now he is confused.