stupid

[jlip77]

so. yanno when you like someone and you think you're finally over him, but then he'll talk to you or you'll find something out about him or w/e the case may be and then you realize that you do still like him? yeah. story of my life. and so. completely. annoying. and it's just getting on my nerves. especially because then i of course get super paranoid about tiny things. i think that he must think i'm a huge loser and a little weird and as many times as my friends tell me i'm crazy for thinking this - i still do think it.

so then the other day (yesterday..? maybe the day before? can't remember.) i was talking to jersey and lauren m. about why we don't have boyfriends. then lauren explained to me that it's simply because we're too sexy for them and they have to go through losers first before they find us. haha silly lauren. yeah and the realization that we have prom next year makes me just so unhappy because it will be such a miserable time for me. i'll probably end up going with....i dunno. my cousin. or dad. hahahha funny image. or just a group of friends - which is ok, and i heard prom is actually a lot of fun when you go with a group of friends - and i imagine it would be..but it's still not the same as having and actual date. whatever i don't want to think about this anymore so i'm gonna go now