my name is clio and I'm having an existential crisis

[jlh]

I don't really like posting when I'm having an existential crisis, but I'll lay out a few thoughts that have been swirling in my head over the past 24 hours:

1. There's been a spate of LJ hacking, shoebox being the latest. I would rather that my email and LJ not be hacked.
   
2. Later in folk's journal it seemed that what I have to do is memorize 40 strings of

Comments

[ecwoodburn]

Hack-worthy or not, you are awesome. *squish*

I am ashamed to admit that I use the same password in far too many places where I really should change it up for security purposes. I got lazy from being at this job for 4.5 years now and having to change my network password every 90 days.

I will spare you my adoption-birth certificate rant. Instead, I will tell you that I had something of an identity crisis over the summer. First I got married and changed my name; I felt like I had no last name until the marriage certificate came back and didn't know how to introduce myself to people. Then I found my hands on the keyboard one day, going to adoption.com's reunion registry without checking with my brain first, and ending up finding my birth name. I feel no connection with that name whatsoever, and found it entirely not funny when my husband and mom both "jokingly" called me by that name. (Did I mention that for most of my 30 years of existing, I have had zero interest in "reunion" with my birthparents? And I'm still terribly ambivalent on the subject?)

[ecwoodburn]

Argh, YES. I remember people in choir cornering me on this in high school. Sorry, no primal wound here. I'm all for open access to original records, but personally, if my birthparents showed up on my doorstep one day? I'd have to find a polite way to tell them "sorry, not really interested, have a nice day."

[sistermagpie]

Really? I find it weird and confusing that they don't just take what you say about your feelings at face value! I mean...why should you care? I get why some people do but it makes just as much sense that you don't. If I were adopted I honestly don't know what I would want to do. My instinct says I wouldn't want to find out that much.

[lillijulianne]

i never had any interest, either. and yes, people often thought it weird, though no one was ever an asshole on the subject. in my case my biological mother eventually did show up. because of the way she approached me- through a third party, and very respectful of the amount of time it took me to decide to meet her- we now have a very nice friendship. but i never felt that i was missing a mother, and i don't think of her as a mother.