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Well, I have to say its been a while since I last sat down and wrote in this. Where do I start? Well I guess I must say, that in life all of us make choices some, poorer than others, and I definitely have made my share of those. I live my life with no regrets however, because I learn from trial and error, that for me is the only true way to learn something. But enough about mistakes, I'm tired of dwelling on the past, right now I'm more focused on the future, about what will happen to me, in the near-distant unknown. I cannot wait to see what fate has in store for me this year. I have had some feelings and dreams that this year will undoubtedly be the changing year in my life, and if so, I can honestly say that I'm very much ready to see what will happen.
To my dear Cronies: Last year was the ride of my life. I had some down points with a few of you, but it was only because of my own inexperience and maturity that caused me to act the way I did. I learn much from each and every one of you........Patrick- Although you never really have a heart to heart conversation, I do believe I learn much, both from your advice, and words to remember.......Brogan- you who are my greatest friend, you understand me a little more than the rest, if there ever was an ideal best friend, you would fit that category well........Jessica- I know you aren't the type to be lovey dovey around your friends (just your gf) but I know what you think of me, and I want you to know that its always a reassurance in my mind, in case I question if people actually care.......Jeff- I kind of always look at you as an older brother, but in the sense that, you have that enigma to yourself. That wherever you go, people know exactly who you're talking about when they say your name, and that is something I'm envious about you sometimes..........Andy- You seem like an older uncle to me, lol. You always seem like you're three or four steps ahead of everyone else in life, which is always the best place to be, in my opinion......And to Emily, Stephanie and Jenny- I don't know you three as well as the rest of the group, but you have become part of us and I'm very happy to be friends with each of you.
It seems like I don't post all that frequently and I should, I just never can seem to motivate myself. I just don't have that inspiration in my life that gets me motivated. I have been searching for a while, but alas, have found nothing yet. I hope in that near-distant unknown, things change for me a little, and I find that inspiration.
I suppose thats all for now. I'm still a bit blank headed since the New Year had first begun. Hopefully I'll feel the need to write again soon.......
Now its time for some poetry:
My passion for you,
it burns so deep,
bright as a thousand suns,
warm as a million stars.
Beyond the horizon,
there I wait for you,
warming the cold land,
lighting the dark skies,
and suddenly I see you,
laying there asleep,
so fair, so beautiful,
so gentle, so pure,
so calm, so very serene.
I can but only hope,
for a single day in time,
that she will be mine,
and naught but mine alone.
As my longing takes over,
driving me towards you,
I warm you with my touch,
my fingers of pure light,
they glide over your body,
gently touching, caressing,
caring for your tender flesh.
Oh the possibilities!
The many loving acts,
all I would do for you,
accomplish with you.
I can but only hope,
for a single day in time,
that she will be mine,
and naught but mine alone.
Your still body begins to stir,
eyes beginning to open,
revealing the gateway,
a gateway to a beautiful mind,
a mind so true and unique,
I can only smile in its presence.
I gaze upon eyes so deep,
revealing a beautiful universe,
a universe where you and I are,
are united and nothing else is,
a universe where you and I,
we roam through the stars,
wandering through the space,
alone, together, in sweet harmony.
I can but only hope,
for a single day in time,
that she will be mine,
and naught but mine alone.
I make my mind firm in action,
I will make your beauty mine,
never forcefully, but lovingly,
tenderly, gently, being me,
courting you as none other,
showing genuine kindness,
caring, love, passion, romance,
and when those six words,
so strong, so weak, so thoughtful,
so meaningful, words I long to hear,
words I will wait an eternity to hear,
just to come from your mouth,
show me such joy and hope,
by saying "I love you, I am yours."
I can only think of it,
for an eternity of time,
that she might be mine,
and naught but mine alone
What ever I say couldn't bring you back
I know because I've tried
Not even the oceans full of tears
I know because I've cried
I could hold on to the memories
The love that we shared too
But really they are just memories
For all I want is you.
The way your hand fits into mine
And my heart always calls your name
I know I don't have to search no more
Our entwined hearts, we are the same
For I have found the peace inside
What I have search for, for so long
The love for you is so powerful
Our harmony was like a song
So for now, my love for you is strong
And in my heart, I know that you belong
I can't get you out, and I won't even try
No matter how many tears I know I will cry.
It's a love I cannot forget
Looking back, one I will never regret
I know, you don't hold me in your heart
But within mine, you will remain a special part
So I can only let you live
Without me in your sight
But within me,
You will always be
My greatest love, my beautiful light
To my dear Cronies: Last year was the ride of my life. I had some down points with a few of you, but it was only because of my own inexperience and maturity that caused me to act the way I did. I learn much from each and every one of you........Patrick- Although you never really have a heart to heart conversation, I do believe I learn much, both from your advice, and words to remember.......Brogan- you who are my greatest friend, you understand me a little more than the rest, if there ever was an ideal best friend, you would fit that category well........Jessica- I know you aren't the type to be lovey dovey around your friends (just your gf) but I know what you think of me, and I want you to know that its always a reassurance in my mind, in case I question if people actually care.......Jeff- I kind of always look at you as an older brother, but in the sense that, you have that enigma to yourself. That wherever you go, people know exactly who you're talking about when they say your name, and that is something I'm envious about you sometimes..........Andy- You seem like an older uncle to me, lol. You always seem like you're three or four steps ahead of everyone else in life, which is always the best place to be, in my opinion......And to Emily, Stephanie and Jenny- I don't know you three as well as the rest of the group, but you have become part of us and I'm very happy to be friends with each of you.
It seems like I don't post all that frequently and I should, I just never can seem to motivate myself. I just don't have that inspiration in my life that gets me motivated. I have been searching for a while, but alas, have found nothing yet. I hope in that near-distant unknown, things change for me a little, and I find that inspiration.
I suppose thats all for now. I'm still a bit blank headed since the New Year had first begun. Hopefully I'll feel the need to write again soon.......
Now its time for some poetry:
My passion for you,
it burns so deep,
bright as a thousand suns,
warm as a million stars.
Beyond the horizon,
there I wait for you,
warming the cold land,
lighting the dark skies,
and suddenly I see you,
laying there asleep,
so fair, so beautiful,
so gentle, so pure,
so calm, so very serene.
I can but only hope,
for a single day in time,
that she will be mine,
and naught but mine alone.
As my longing takes over,
driving me towards you,
I warm you with my touch,
my fingers of pure light,
they glide over your body,
gently touching, caressing,
caring for your tender flesh.
Oh the possibilities!
The many loving acts,
all I would do for you,
accomplish with you.
I can but only hope,
for a single day in time,
that she will be mine,
and naught but mine alone.
Your still body begins to stir,
eyes beginning to open,
revealing the gateway,
a gateway to a beautiful mind,
a mind so true and unique,
I can only smile in its presence.
I gaze upon eyes so deep,
revealing a beautiful universe,
a universe where you and I are,
are united and nothing else is,
a universe where you and I,
we roam through the stars,
wandering through the space,
alone, together, in sweet harmony.
I can but only hope,
for a single day in time,
that she will be mine,
and naught but mine alone.
I make my mind firm in action,
I will make your beauty mine,
never forcefully, but lovingly,
tenderly, gently, being me,
courting you as none other,
showing genuine kindness,
caring, love, passion, romance,
and when those six words,
so strong, so weak, so thoughtful,
so meaningful, words I long to hear,
words I will wait an eternity to hear,
just to come from your mouth,
show me such joy and hope,
by saying "I love you, I am yours."
I can only think of it,
for an eternity of time,
that she might be mine,
and naught but mine alone
What ever I say couldn't bring you back
I know because I've tried
Not even the oceans full of tears
I know because I've cried
I could hold on to the memories
The love that we shared too
But really they are just memories
For all I want is you.
The way your hand fits into mine
And my heart always calls your name
I know I don't have to search no more
Our entwined hearts, we are the same
For I have found the peace inside
What I have search for, for so long
The love for you is so powerful
Our harmony was like a song
So for now, my love for you is strong
And in my heart, I know that you belong
I can't get you out, and I won't even try
No matter how many tears I know I will cry.
It's a love I cannot forget
Looking back, one I will never regret
I know, you don't hold me in your heart
But within mine, you will remain a special part
So I can only let you live
Without me in your sight
But within me,
You will always be
My greatest love, my beautiful light