Heavy Load
Alot has gone on since I left Orlando only 4 weeks ago. My father moved to Florida last week. Once again he has up and left to be with another woman. I didnt say goodbye, neither did my sisters. I'm just tired of the back in forth in my life thing. Most people have 2 parents in their lives at my age. I have one who's pretty consistant at being the parent and one that acts like he's my child. Damn I wish you could pick your parents.
Other than that alot has been weighing on my heart. I'm in love with 2 people. And I'm hurting myself with it. I'm with one and I think about the other, is he ok and whats he doing. When I think about my future I dont see a clear path like I use to. I'm just confused, what if I say goodbye to one to be with other and I make the wrong decision. What if the one I'm meant to be with doesnt want to be with me? I miss him and the way I feel around him but will he ever want to be with me in that way?
Other than that alot has been weighing on my heart. I'm in love with 2 people. And I'm hurting myself with it. I'm with one and I think about the other, is he ok and whats he doing. When I think about my future I dont see a clear path like I use to. I'm just confused, what if I say goodbye to one to be with other and I make the wrong decision. What if the one I'm meant to be with doesnt want to be with me? I miss him and the way I feel around him but will he ever want to be with me in that way?