sappy... again
SO here I am crying again. I just watched the Notebook with Trisha, Ananya, Amy, and Lauren It hit me doubly hard.. I was think about wanting a guy, and about my Grandma. Ah
Well this weekend has undoubtedly been one of my best. Last night I hung out with Trisha and Anna. We went to a hockey game. It was awesome! I have never had such a good friday since i have been here. AFter the game, we came back and hung out with Connor, Joe, and Dave in Trisha in her room. It was cool. THey are funny guys. It was really nice to hangout with different people. I am beginning to realize that as much as Nardos and I hangout, i will never really be close to Sha and people. Its just our personalities, and what we value in friendship. Its nice having the different groups of friends. I feel a lot better hanging out with people that share the same values about things. Trisha is awesome. She i think will definately be a good friend of mine. she is so awesome. Hopefully it works out, and i don't ruin that relationship too.
So tonight wathcing that movie made me think about Justin.. suprising i know. i miss him, but i don't think that it is exactly him that i miss. I miss the good parts of him. His laugh, his sense of humor. His ability to get me to tell him anything. But mostly i miss the way i felt around him. While he did have some pretty crappy characteristics I felt so beautiful when i was with him. I know that sounds so cheesy, but its true. He wanted me and thats all i knew. He is the first and only guy that i have ever known that has wanted me, and it was such a great feeling. Having somewhere put his hand on the small of my back when i stood next to him. Walking down the street with him holding my hand. The way he looked at me. I just felt special, I felt so confident and sure of myself in those moments. It was wonderful, and i fear that it will never happen again. ...
3 days till i get to go home! yay! i am so excited, it will be so nice to not be stressed out. I ahve been so stressed out lately it has sucked. I can't wait!
Ok well thats it.
Well this weekend has undoubtedly been one of my best. Last night I hung out with Trisha and Anna. We went to a hockey game. It was awesome! I have never had such a good friday since i have been here. AFter the game, we came back and hung out with Connor, Joe, and Dave in Trisha in her room. It was cool. THey are funny guys. It was really nice to hangout with different people. I am beginning to realize that as much as Nardos and I hangout, i will never really be close to Sha and people. Its just our personalities, and what we value in friendship. Its nice having the different groups of friends. I feel a lot better hanging out with people that share the same values about things. Trisha is awesome. She i think will definately be a good friend of mine. she is so awesome. Hopefully it works out, and i don't ruin that relationship too.
So tonight wathcing that movie made me think about Justin.. suprising i know. i miss him, but i don't think that it is exactly him that i miss. I miss the good parts of him. His laugh, his sense of humor. His ability to get me to tell him anything. But mostly i miss the way i felt around him. While he did have some pretty crappy characteristics I felt so beautiful when i was with him. I know that sounds so cheesy, but its true. He wanted me and thats all i knew. He is the first and only guy that i have ever known that has wanted me, and it was such a great feeling. Having somewhere put his hand on the small of my back when i stood next to him. Walking down the street with him holding my hand. The way he looked at me. I just felt special, I felt so confident and sure of myself in those moments. It was wonderful, and i fear that it will never happen again. ...
3 days till i get to go home! yay! i am so excited, it will be so nice to not be stressed out. I ahve been so stressed out lately it has sucked. I can't wait!
Ok well thats it.