Restoration at the fifth dimension.
I was caught in a downward spiral this morning, I don't know why, it has not happened in a long time. It was like a dark funnel sucked me in. I went right to the bottom of my soul with self pity, resentment, anger and fear, I was a mess. All I could think of was how bad certain things are in my life, How things are never going to get any better and how scared, frustrated and angry I am about past situations, One thought led to another. One feeling led to another worse, more negative one.It seems every time I have trusted and opened my heart I have been taken advantage of, used and abused. I just wanted to hide inside myself and never come out. I really got caught up in the whole self pity thing. I prayed for a long time and then started spiraling upward. (The voice), "Just get up, walk around, brush your teeth get on with life everything is new. there's hope, ecstasy, bliss, joy, peace and love. It,s all there for you to take.Don't stop until you open your heart all the way. Ask for help. Believing will make it real."
Endings and rebirth-New beginnings-are an ongoing part of my life. I am committed to walking the spiritual path, I intend to be on and stay on it. Each incident and relationship I have encountered along the way has been an important part of my journey home. Even the incidents that really hurt, those times when I have been terribly betrayed, has helped me learn something important and valuable about myself. Maybe I was retrieving an important part of my heart-Learning that I can be loved , even though I learned it the hard way. I think that leaving was the motivation I needed to remember what my soul really came here to do. I have ended one life and now am starting on a new beginning.
I have learned my lessons, I speak my truth, and with grace and dignity I move on. I'm one step closer to getting where I need to go on my miraculous journey home. I won't repeat the situation again with others, the lesson was well learned. My decisions are up to me and they are led from my heart and soul not my head. No more third dimensional drama from the past. My next step is not clear but by staying with the truth, and collecting all the pieces of my soul I'm sure my next step will not take me back-wards but it will take me one step closer to home.
Endings and rebirth-New beginnings-are an ongoing part of my life. I am committed to walking the spiritual path, I intend to be on and stay on it. Each incident and relationship I have encountered along the way has been an important part of my journey home. Even the incidents that really hurt, those times when I have been terribly betrayed, has helped me learn something important and valuable about myself. Maybe I was retrieving an important part of my heart-Learning that I can be loved , even though I learned it the hard way. I think that leaving was the motivation I needed to remember what my soul really came here to do. I have ended one life and now am starting on a new beginning.
I have learned my lessons, I speak my truth, and with grace and dignity I move on. I'm one step closer to getting where I need to go on my miraculous journey home. I won't repeat the situation again with others, the lesson was well learned. My decisions are up to me and they are led from my heart and soul not my head. No more third dimensional drama from the past. My next step is not clear but by staying with the truth, and collecting all the pieces of my soul I'm sure my next step will not take me back-wards but it will take me one step closer to home.