Troy/ Cannakale

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i put new pictures up on facebook. of my new friends. of my amazing 24 hour adventure. of life.

talking to my mother about V-tech
she called me twice
to make sure i was okay.
she misses me so much
and this is really the longest i've been away
from home in my life.

it doesn't feel like i've grown up
because i've been thinking about
being away from home
and i don't want to be different
but when i look at myself in pictures
i think "damn. you are beautiful."

i had a dream about jason
the night before he sent me an outrageous message
about his life and how it's part of mine still
and i still miss him
because i'm a chump.
i should be falling in love with other men now.
better men.
but i'm not. and i'm stuck.

leah is gone for a week.
her parent's are coming today, in 2 hours.
i'm so excited for her
she's happy.
but i'm going to miss the hell out of her.

how am i going to get up in the morning when i'm hungover?
beer and vodka is never good, whether it's free or not.
and when i can't go to bed, she makes me. it's what i need.
who will understand my american jerky jokes?
man. but she's having a blast already, even though she's in a taski.